d-3 house arrest

huhuhuhu..
why everything is so hard..
did i wish for more?

LORD.. why does this happen.. am i all about complain???

i try my hardest to hold on, but i dont feel alright...
they say i should be happy with my job.. that i should be okay.. but everytime it's time to work i feel like in a hell.... im sorry.. yeah..maybe im just over reacting.. okay i have happy moments too.. its because of the nice customer i met.. especially grandma.. she's so sweet.. im sorry that our meeting would end now.. ill surely miss her...

and mami post this via her fb friend..

 you know who that number 1 are.. i feel like my decision is correct.. but many are being drag down because of me... IM SO SORRY!.....

i really wanted to try my luck here..but they gave up on me.. maybe really i have no luck here... GOD.. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!
and sorry for not being such a fighter... i've lost and i am a failure....