konnichiwa

mixed emotions minna.. i've already been cancelled and i have my flight this 3am..on the 22nd.. haayy.. i wanted to go home but i also wanted to stay here..because i have so many things i want to do..but the opportunities are being unlucky... sigh...

i wanted to voice out how bad my ex-employer ..how he broke my opportunities to grow, start renewing my life.. damn..he's really bad..i hate him..im cursing him.

and i've chatted to this egyptian guy.. should i give in.. arggghh..desperate... i dunno.what should i do..

been packing things and it was hard.. .. the problems in the rented room of kuya and kha still goes on ..but they decided to move out..arrgghh..expenses again for them..they saw a room near here.. but the rent is higher.. i hope someday i can repay them.. arrgghh.. money money you're so bad..

anyeong..

it was so upsetting yesterday and today...

first my cousin invited me to go to dubai.. but we had this misunderstanding before so kuya doesnt believe her anymore..so let's say kuya really wanted to cut off any communication with her.. and dont want to bother them and vice versa to bother us. for me and mommy it was all in the past and we dont mind that anymore.. i didnt know that kuya still hold this grudge.. so in short he didnt permit me to go.. which is so sad and upsetting for e because i've been spoiling my life for almost a month here in the house where even i didnt do anything .. why i am being punished.. yes i saw this as punishment not as a pre caution or any safety.. but kuya still insisted that this is for our safety ... omg!!
i just dot want to argue nor fight with him so i justfollow his wishes.. but this is so much. i feel like im in prison here.. omo.. huhuhuu..
i was realy really mad at myself why this things happens to us.. im really such a failure...
and kuya this way of yours is not good too.. ill pity your family if you continue on like this...

huhuuhuuuu.... for this entire saturday i was just here...
and i told you before that i was talking this egyptian guy.. i dunno.. is he the one.. huuhuhuhu.. but i want white/caucasian... because i know we had different custom... but arrghh.. i dunno...

kon...

its aiba-chan.. happy ne'.....

hehehe.. finally i was able to sign my visa cancellation.. i wish this will be finished asap.. haaayy...
still this ex-employer of mine was giving a crap explanation..

day-16.. shucks 1/2 months are already been spoiled... because of this damn problem of mine.

anyways.. i said that i shouldnt be that sad and mad anymore.. because the pimples i had over worrying things like that are all in my cheeks..and please..just go away.... im too much ugly...

i've got to chat to this egyptian guy and it seems that he's nice..but he's a muslim.. haay..
anyways.. ciao...

anyeong..

finally mission accomplished i was able to deliver the food to aubrey and sir SULTAN.. yes you've heard it.. i already have sir netcafe's name.. i asked one of the staff about his name.. and i really thought when i called him at 5 pm.. he's not picking up the phone.. he wont talk to me.. because he might think im in trouble again or what.. i went first to aubrey..still talk about the never ending sad story of my life.. nakakasawa na rin pala.. but its the reality...

i called sir sultan 6:30 pm he said he'll be at shop after 30 minutes.. and i dint told  kuya nor kha where i am going so i know they'll be worried but i cant tell them that im going to sir.. anyways.. i do come and he's waiting outside... i was ashamed because argghh.. then whoa.. actually the shop was almost full..and all boys playing DOTA... i thought i can have a quiet and nice talk with sir..but it looks like he doesnt have an office. he's just roaming around.. when i told him i have something to give..he said first its okay..he wont take it.. so i just said ill give it to his staff but he changes his mind he said he'll take it.. i said i cook it and its tuna pasta, i ask if he eat tuna.. he didnt said anything.. i dunno... hmmppff. and i remember i told him on the fon about a friend and he asked me if she's married and how old.. ammppness.. kakaririn mo sir??  but we never spoke about it because he's also kind of busy... he talks to his client and then one thing he's not around so i mostly talk to his staff.. he said what's going on.. told him i still dont have my papers.. and then he said why not go to ministry of labor.. i said my brother don't want a long process.. just after my cancellation.. i'll just go back to the philippines.. huhhu..and he said that i should be going .... yeah i know because i keep on talking in the counter and his staff can't concentrate after all its work hours.. its just that he is really kind.

while on my way home... kuya called and  i was at the spark building so im almost home.. sorry.. i know you were just worried..but i dont want to cause trouble.. but i have things to do.. plus im really very careful. why my life has turned like this.. why i became like a prisoner.. huhuuhuu.....

d-7..yes.. its been one week since the end of my misery at al aseel but the beginning of my after misery at al aseel.. still they are the same very reason why i am locked up... shit!! i sooooo hate them.. i want to contact sir abdul aziz.. huhhuu..

i wish i could just pick up money .. at least i would have to call it my own.. huhuhuh crying crying....
who will help me end this misery..??

okay i was now free from that hell place.. AL ASEEL PRINTING SERVICES....

but i never ever thought that this was really serious...

i thought everything would be just fine.. if i quit quietly.. but still they hold me back..
i never thought that this process was going be like this..
when my brother and kha pay for my release, they were no settlement documents.. because it was all about trust and respect.. but now what happen.. the night of my last day.. they did something horrible to me.. OMG!! that went so far.. now that i've realized maybe that 500 is for the project i didnt finish.. i really wanted to contact sir abdul aziz but what will i do.. my kuya and kha forbid me not to contact any one related from them.. because it might become, one of my problem in the future.. ottoke?
and i cant go out because i dont have any papers on me...
i dont have any copy of my national id nor the passport.. they are all holding it.. even if i paid them already..
damn.. it was just only JEN who told about it last night..

kuya wanted me to go home.. although there's a part of me i dont want to.. because i dont have anything again... huhuhu.. who should i call.. even my sim.. they told me to take it out..

i really wanted to stay pa.. its just nobody support me now.. they gave up on me...

and i've been pestering sir from internet cafe.. thanks to you.. i really don't know how to repay you.. and i dont even have your name..but i always disturb you. thank you so much i just hope someday i can repay you....

LORD what should i do?? i am in house arrest because i dont have papers on me.

yaaahh.. what did i do??
but i feel okay and happy now.. although i have caused much problems to kha and mike..
ill find a way to solve things please just bear with me again...

they already talk to sir abdulla.. and i didnt ask how much they pay him.. but i think it was like 4k dhms.. whoaa that's a lot... and the bad news is that i already have ban of 6 months... greaatt..

and then i told you that i was also holding the cashier.. and you know what they did... they make me have a shortage of 500.. isnt that unbelievable... 500 exactly.. i told them that i would never have that shortage...

they say that they will call the police.. we waited  but no one came.. and of course i disturb carol adn jen.. but to make the story short.. carol and kuya decided to pay the 500.. damn.. those fucking liers and money lovers.... i swore to the grave that they will never have a quiet life....

the sad life story of ine in AUH.... fuck!!!!
this time is sadder because i was never able to get any and the money i've used up!! is soooo much.. i think it was like 200k php.. DAMN!!! AL ASEEL PRINTING SERVICES.

i think this what happen... in the cash receiving form and the small receipt..it tallied but in the cash register reading it did not.. so it means someone might have punched that damn 500.. and they are not letting me see that 500 punched in the total cash reg..  so there is something really wrong. they did not let us compare the small receipt to the total reading.. CURSE CURSE YOU!

malak you know the truth, i did nothing wrong... please speak up.. how many filipino no..how many employees of your damn company have experienced like i have.... why are you just shutting up your mouth....

and i know this fucking abu salam did this...!! he just always read the cash reg every morning..so how come they read that tonight.. anyways just what kha and mike said that evenif we are right we will never gonna win.

yes.. I am!
that's why my life has never been so great.....

tsk.. tsk.. tsk...


its time to let go minna...
the bottle of oyster dropped and spilled.. and it is one of my faverite seasoning..
so this means.. im broken... im really a lousy and failed human...

sorryy............

haller..

i've talked to christine this morning..she said i can still back down since i dont have the residence visa yet..
its just that i have to pay all the expenses.. waahh..
how much would that be kaya??

i needed to break through....

i am really trying my best.. but still..

the workload are too much.. and the manners and personality of them..
are freaking me out...

christine also told me that even if she's gonna be on my place.. she cant' take it.

should i post a rainbow sign.. is there any hope i can see from the future..
sigh....

LORD is it the final sign for me to back down..
even CHRISTINE can't take it anymore...

huhuhu

oomoo..


just kill me...
tangna...

madali lang daw...
sabi mo artehan ko.. sabi mo lagyan ng mga kung anu anu..
and besides is this only the one i did..

im also doing something..
 pakyu kayo...

and then  you still have many complains..
im doing everything.. doing my best...
still not good enough.. of course i cant do it alone.. give me someone who will help me..
pakers...

haaya nakakaasar talaga..

LORD please what to do..???

waaahhh...

help i need HELP.....

sheeet...
i still have pending projects,, and these fucking madam is asking me always.. and his fucking husband.. always sees me... he's accusing me always.. SHIT AL ASEEL...

fuck that project ... so many things to scribble and add kaya....
tapos may endless complain pa...

of course i was being reported again.. and galit na galit na naman sila...

shiit.. i really wanted to go na sana kaya lang..waahhh ...
shiiitt talaga...

and there's this pinay customer was being mistreated..as in kawawa naman.. hope mag-complain sila.

and the job order of the translation..sana un lumabas..bakit andun na.. fuck..

anyeong!!


haaaayy.. thanks god its friday...

i have to stay late at bed..woke up at 11pm.. yattta!!

but still im so freakin' angry wit yabang.. argghh.. still insisting to finish the damn research tomorrow.. ottoke?????

bahala sila... ewan ko sa kanila...


will go to mass later...

LORD please let there be someone... talaga who will save me... from this slavery life at AL ASEEL..

so the girl im telling is the assistant of SIR at talaween.. haay i thought there someone na makakasama ako.. haaay..

so she talk to me this morning because tanda..make sumbong again that i wasnt doing anything again.. at im jsut talking or chit chatting.a.wtf..eh he didnt even listen to me when he ask.. pakyu talaga un.

tapos sabi pa niya lier daw ako .. dun sa pinay.. haaay waaahh


i soooo hate that place..

and still that fucking translation job order cant find.. asn ka na ba?? awaaaa
baka naman kasi na sa kanila..kasi its so impossible na mawala un..
anyways..about kay yabang ayan.. nagalit na naman kasi mali ung print ko na power point.. eh nde ko siya na gets..so i asked him again if one slide per sheet.. uu daw.. tapos ayun ginawa ko , nagalit... waaahh..tapos he said that i told you to print 9 slides in one sheet.. then i replied back.. sir i ask you again if i will print it in one page .. he said yes kaya.. pero . nde na ko pinatapos.. pakyu talaga... nde rin niya ko pinakinggan na tinanong ko siya ulit.. tapos he said yes..tangna talaga sila..


then there's 3 new projects na naman... pero case study pa.. PAKYU talaga sila..
mga hayop..

waaa...


please LORD let there be someone who will save me in this damn fucking hell place.. AL ASEEL PRINTING.. PAkers...|


ayan.. si yabang naman umariba... he sent me 2 projects which is case study questionaire and guess what.. a research.. pakyung un.. i have to finish both daw in saturday.. gago pala siya.. anung gagawin.. do it at home.. sabi ko sir research paper takes time.. eh.. gago sa pinakagago pala talaga un.. HAYOP.. bobo.. nde makaintindi.. anung gagawin ko.. please kill me now..

anyeong!


wake up early.. and kuya join me in attending the mass...
whoa... i can say that there still many catholics here...

thanks GOD i was able to fulfill this one... but i wasnt' able stick up to 30 days/40 days abstinence of meat.. i ate torta with ground beef for lunch..

then,, the same thing happen at AL ASEEL, still im scared to my two employers.... actually im scared to all of them..mga may SAYAD/Topak sa ulo!

naman, pinagalitan ako... haayy when will come a day na mawawala sa shop yang si tanda...
and there\s this document/job order that's missing and of course who's responsibility is that.. haay... they told me to look for it but they dont want me to look it in their desk, what if they mistakenly took it or what if it was inserted in the documents they have... sighness,,  what a freakin' fucking life, sorry for the bad words LORD,

and tanda told me that he doesnt want to see me at the work area, talking to allan, haaay i was just asking.. he never let me say anything..he ask me what am i doing there..but he never let me utter any word..so what a fucking person... and he even told me that bad staff was causing a damage to their equipment.. he ask again are you a bad staff.or good..of course i said im not a bad staff..and he answered.let's see... so i was under investigation..mga suspicious,basta mga bad sila. they are worried for the job orders because , they think someone may see it and make a copy.. because i know that service are not covered even doing the school project, study cases and other school related staff that concerns researching are not included in their business proposal/services.. haaay sana nga may magsumbong sa kanila and have an investigation.. let the company closed down.. mga behlat... haay so that i can escape in this hell life too. huhuhuhuhu...

im still praying for someone who will save me at the hell life....

kon^

yeah its my special day.. but nothing seems special.. anyways.. we celebrated it last night.. kuya and i ate at wendys then we bought ingredients for white sauce spaghetti..my bestfriend louise called me and greeted me... then you know talk a little... tod her that i was having problem form my current jib..but what to do.. thats the way life is... then cook it when i came home last night.. then went to madinat abu dhabi coop to walk after we ate the pasta....


went home at 2:00 am then sleep...  haaaiissshh...

this morning.. was so many work too.. busyness... have to make a print out...
damn... madam.. now was pointing to me that it was me who misunderstood about that printing chorva.. aiisshhh..

then have this visa application..damn again..the one who was asking for it doesnt know english so how can i communicate.. shiittt...
and its a five application.. and plus the damn slow stupid PC keeps on hanging up.. what to do???
ottoke?

what a day... and i have to take a taxi cab this afternoon because its late already.. i only have 3 dirhams and .50 fils... ottoke..
what a day...

anyways those who greeted and remembers.. THANKS... KAMSAHAMNIDA.. ARIGATO!
thank you LORD for this day..that i am still breathing .. healthy and alive...

thanks for the GRACE... thanks for everything...
my wish... HELP me to be strong..and overcome all this!
BLESS my family and friends....
HOPE that the management of AL ASEEL will change for the better..

i met uo with the pasr employees of AL ASEEL and i can feel their hatred and their regrets.. bu what can i do.. and i feel now the iron law of this fucking company.. but what to do..
i talk to them and i am now decided but i still dont have money..

kha came to the store to check me out because i didnt go home and i am nit answering nor texting back kuya.. i know that's bad..

and this fucking old man was really a pain in my life...

gomene'

ottoke???

still.. in my heart, mind, soul and body i really wanted to give up my fucking job!
im sorry i am a failed person...
they were too much.. they all care about the fucking money...

my life was really a mess.. i sooo hate me for making the decision...

im not good in decision.. LORD what have happen to me??
huhuhuhuhu........

can you please shed a light to me once more.....????
please take me out of this damn life...

am i not really belong here????

sheeett..help me once please..

hope my family would understand how i feel....

AL ASEEL is a place for damnation...it is a hell on earth
wtf, is that rule..

the restaurant beside them is there enemies so i dont have the right to talk to any of their staff and any affiliated person in that restaurant
i have to bring a small bag only
i have to answer their call and if i wasnt to able they will deduct a 50 dhms
all the things i essed up should be deducted from me
i cant talk any longer to the filipino of course you cannot give price.

in short you have no right, you are a slave.
you have to nod always..

sorry i dont think i can follow these..

if you were given a work, you cant refuse...

FUCK!

AYAW KO NA! PASEENSIYA NA PO TALAGA!..
SORRY....

anyeong...
happy kapuso day...
demo, why it feels so dark.. cant feel any love in the air and the saddest thing is.. LYN signed her cancellation visa today. i dunno what happen .. but she was being accused by our employer as a stealer.. huhuhuhu..
i so hate this scene.. i cant take this scene.. and now i was being also interrogated by this fucking old man.. huhuhuh.. LORD help me get out.. im in so much troubled...

i feel like i was in a pitch black hole.... omg!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh..
who could save me.. do i have to go with someone.. huhuhuhuhuhu....................

actually it was given to me yesterday and i have to take taxi cab.. damn... it adds up to my expenses... aissshh... but they were looking for my visa which they didnt gave..so i called sir abdullah and told me to continue today...
okay im done and they let me sign my contract yesterday also..waahh LYN is really leaving.. ottoke????
i cant fulfill the job promise... waaahhhh

and... while on my way home this afternoon.. 2 man was asking me.. errhhh...
do i look like that.. i mean no offense but please.... eeeww..... i told you if only he's mr. saeed.. hahaha..

anyway..back to my contract... i know that their just hanging on me because of the project... not because im good.. aiiisshh.. because there's this one customer who told me that i'll be working with him till the end of the presentation of their case study.. omo.....

and there's a new filipino.. aww.. i dunno if he's with us or if he's with the management... gotta be careful...

i sooo fucking hate this old man... abu khaled... arrgghh....

waaaaaaaahhh.........

my supposed to be employer... already gave up on me..he told me that he cannot help me anymore, because he already have complete line up for his employees.. so SAD.. so this means i have to do best and experience the fucking life at AL ASEEL .. until they got tired and fire me.. omg!!!! ottoke???

so this means there will be so many salary deduction.. huhuhuhu.. how??? nande????

im sorry JACQ!!
this is the decision that you should be facing...
i can't back down now...

huhuhuhuhu..........

omoooo...

i dont wanna be so bitter or so negative for the whole month so im sharing this cute IU giffy....
mawningness...

anyways.. waahhh mi chyuh suh?  yeah i have the confidence to call my supposed to be employer yesterday and guess what he called back.. and he said that i dont sound like im okay .. huhu i wish he could help me although i know its really late..please just help me out from this fucked up messed worked life at AL ASEEL..
i so not making any progress.. i cant' work right.. i always feel so nervous.. sorry LORD....

and so i have been taking care the register and guess what.. im over of 10 dirhams and one slip is missing.. omo.. huhuhu.. of course i was being reported again.. waaaaaaaaahhh..

i'm a FAILURE....


and there's a car following me until madinat.. he even waved .. hahahahhaa.. as if i will fall.. if he's mr saeed .. hehehe.. why not..??? aisshhh..
hattte me...
LORD sorry.. mianhe.. gomenasai!!

omo..

omg, i dunno what to do.. if only there's someone who will take me.. aiisshhh...  carol keeps on reminding me to talk to my boss about my national id here.. but what's on my mind is for me to change work...

what's keeping me pre-occupied for days now is the situation i am with...

if i stay in that damn fucking company....

a. i'll be a total slave
b. i might get heart attack for their shouting
c. i might cause destruction to their property
d. i wont get a whole salary..i'll have deduction monthly
e. it was going to be so tiring
f. i might got insane

and if i go, i will disappoint my family....
i dunno... should i just sacrifice it all..

LORD.. what should i do...??