anyeong..

since i am back in PH, of course for almost a decade now.. me and my mom didnt failed to do these christian practices during lenten season.....

wherein we visit churches.. and had a little prayer and commemorating the hardships that god had undergone in order to wash away the sins of the people. since we are only now three, me, mom and ta loi went together.

konnichiwa minna...

yeah finally i was able to go on board.. what do i feel.. im happy and sd.. i have been telling you before that i was really torn on my feelings.. sigh..i dunno how to start  new life..im back to being down again. sighness overload.

finally ali called me, but he put down the fon..i dunno.. i texted sir sultan but he repied who is this.. yeha i was hurt,, it seems that he deleted already my number.huhhuhu...

it was kinda uneasy and bumpy flight. i still dont know what will i do.. huhu..if only kuya make me have a choice. im a failure...

arrived at 3:15pm but i was able to get my luggage around 3:50pm and mommy is the one who make sundo. haay..sorry i failed you all.. i was nothing.. i hate me...

saw vanilla and alex.. ang kukulit pa rin.. even emty was so noisy. miss u my baby!!

finally back at the philippines. sighnessssssssssss....

anyeong!

omo.. i wasnt able to get on board.. sadness.. we even had breakfast at mcdo.. anyways... they were many stories talaga about sa pag uwe na to.. dame ng sacrifice at na perwisyo sa fully booked ng etihad.

i've got a call from an etihad staff this morning sayang .. around 9am ..sabi niya i can finally get on board but the sad situation is that i wasnt at the airport.. sayangness talaag.nde na ko makakaabot eh..if she called a lil earlier.. haaayyy...

then we went to mass... maybe this is it i should have experience the palm sunday here.. anyways.they were date leaves being given as the palaspas.. and luckily at the end of the mass we were able to get inside the church to make the palaspas be blessed and ourselves as well.. so maybe this is it na talaga.

it was lolo jose first year death anniversary. lolo whereevr you are i hope you are happy with lola and plese help us in all the problems and keep watching over our safety.

then at night we went to al wahda to pay for the etisalat and checked the supermarket  for the water dispenser and some things lie table,chairs, that they need for their new room. but we did not find any ..and decided to just go to the emirates discount we just go their walking and this store was really huge that even if just by looking you will feel very tired. haaayy...

in the end we did not bought what we re supposed to buy.. we just bought some baon.. haaiissh.. and went to the airport after..me and carol bought my luggage this time because it seems that it is now really sure.. and thanks god this is it...

haller....

last night, kha was so busy... naking ayos their new room. haayy i dont know how to help but she told me to just dont mind her at all.. because she still dont know how to arrange the rooms, but what to do..i feel unease.. anyways i sleep early.. not knowing that kha..still stay up late and you know made their laundry.  Today the etisalat agent came.. we didnt know that it would took that long.. because we planned to go in green house to look for the water dispenser and table and some of the things that they needed. 

then kuya called that maybe i should try tonight if i can the 3am flight.. and we had this lil argument.. because i want him to at least have a 60/40 chance that i can get on board.. but he said that i should at least try because he cant be sure.. and he's been worried also on the expenses i've had going to the airport.. and i said that yeha i know it was really a loss and nanghihinayang ako.. then he said.. oh you're the one who's really worried for the money wherein that isnt your money after all.. and i said. yeah that's why i am so ashamed because that's not money.. haaaiissshh.. kuya... i really dont know what you think of me.. i feel i've sacrificed enough but you cant get what i did.. haaayy buhay i so freaking hate it.  

anyeong!

today is a lucky day ... weeeeehhh. 

we move some of the things to the new room that kuya and kha will renting in. and then attended 12pm mass. while on the taxi cab,behind the driver's seat, i saw a 1dirham coin.. phew for the first time in my stay here, i was able to pick up a coin..and said that maybe it is a lucky coin.

after we went to abu dhabi mall because kha bought some padala that she will fill her package box so that they would not bring it over to their new room. and kuya said that i can still buy some padala too, that cost 100dhms.. so i bought 2 olay cream for momi and mita. and t-shirts for me.. the shirts are bargain so i was able to bought 3 and 1 shorts.. they were big sizes on the shirt that i like.. weeehh, am i being really lucky. and then pack things again. me and kha were busy packing all day. the canned goods i bought are really heavy.thanks to kha's package.. i asked her if i can make pasabay ... then that's why my problem for my luggage was being solved. we bought kubos and henna powder.wheeew....

and kha was able to finish her package box and deliver it to the luzan.. hope it will reach PH in good condition.

thank you LORD for this day. everything goes smoothly. kuya gave up that i cant fly this midnight. aww.. i forgot i've spend the lucky coin..huhuhu.. but there were still 1 dirham coin left..hope this will bring luck for the coming days.

i was able to chat with ali, hmm.. i dunno.. is it him, do i consider him???? confused......

omo.. before the day ends.. my ex-boss called kuya..and he says that he will just give my passport because he was not sure if he can go... thanks LORD.... so we didnt let the chance slip away.. even if the cons is that kuya will going to take taxi. thanks lucky coin.

so sorry until now i was causing disturbance and financial problems to kuya and kha.. huhuhu.. hope i can make the flight tomorrow morning

anyeong...

its nino giffy.. yay....

my flighttoday has been cancelled because my ex-animalistic behaviour boss are not available.. my passport was still with him..so kuya has to re-sched my flight.. and it was just okay because there was only 3 chance passenger were able to make it.

i just helped kuya bring some of the packed things in their new rented room, the room is okay and big..but the flat seems crowded.i hope they will be okay there.

and i was able to go to lulu hypermarket, and bought cheese and choco. and then bought some ingredients for chicken afrida.

nothing much happen, just continue packing my things while kha is packing theirs too..

anyeong.. waahhh

finally decided to have some little fun before i went back to ph,. i went to dubai..to see and visit my bestfriend louise... i know kuya was mad and carol was even madder for my being hard headed.. sorry i have to do this for myself naman.. i cant just sit and stare blankly na lang here sa house.. i do really understand how you just want my safety and no more problems..but i have to do it..take a risk..but somehow i didnt get to enjoy much..since i know that they are mad..

we just stroll around.. actually i now know louise problem about her ex-boyfriend.. sighh.. i was really surprise because of the reason.. but anyways... i hope she can move on.. sorry all i can say that im sorry i dont have enough experience in love that's why i cannot much fully understand how deep her love was to her ex-bf. i havent loved anyone before .. because im such a loser...

we went to battuta mall.. together with her brother.. i was also amazed for his accommodating me.. unyo salamat although sana i just want to say ...lend me money instead of letting us eat at fancy restaurant..but thanks to both of you..some of my sentiments become a reality.. i hope to pay you back in the future.. heehhee..just take care of your health.. both of you. we had dinner at mango tree at dubai mall.. it is a thai restaurant. yeahh the food is just ok..especially the noodle..i want to cook that for my family.


take some pictures.. it was unyo's cam.. so ill post next time.
went home before 12am.. whoa..until now and here i am a cinderella.. hehehe

damn, while im in dubai, kuya and ate lili was shocked,because the validiya had made spot checking..the same problem in the house before.. they knock so hard on the doors and question them, why they are still here. i dunno.. and then the validiya asks kuya.for a papers.. i guess for marriage certf. i dunno.. was it a blessing in disguise that i wasnt here when the house was being checked. because they were going to ask for my papers too.if they saw me here .. right? the validiya told them to evacuate and take their things outside because they were going to locked up and shutdown the building. sigh.....i didnt know .. and kha was really cold to me when i got home..phewww...
maybe that's why the whole time im with louise im kinda uneasy because this things happen while im gone. sighh..

anyeong..

it was so upsetting yesterday and today...

first my cousin invited me to go to dubai.. but we had this misunderstanding before so kuya doesnt believe her anymore..so let's say kuya really wanted to cut off any communication with her.. and dont want to bother them and vice versa to bother us. for me and mommy it was all in the past and we dont mind that anymore.. i didnt know that kuya still hold this grudge.. so in short he didnt permit me to go.. which is so sad and upsetting for e because i've been spoiling my life for almost a month here in the house where even i didnt do anything .. why i am being punished.. yes i saw this as punishment not as a pre caution or any safety.. but kuya still insisted that this is for our safety ... omg!!
i just dot want to argue nor fight with him so i justfollow his wishes.. but this is so much. i feel like im in prison here.. omo.. huhuhuu..
i was realy really mad at myself why this things happens to us.. im really such a failure...
and kuya this way of yours is not good too.. ill pity your family if you continue on like this...

huhuuhuuuu.... for this entire saturday i was just here...
and i told you before that i was talking this egyptian guy.. i dunno.. is he the one.. huuhuhuhu.. but i want white/caucasian... because i know we had different custom... but arrghh.. i dunno...

anyeong...


i dunno if its right but i have the feel to change something for this blog although i know i spent time doing my banner.. hmm.. i really wanna learn how this html works.. i want a real template of mine..huhuhu..

i ate too much last night cause its the 2nd time during my 4mos here to eat at KFC.. hahaha.. that's how boring and super tipid i am. kuya and kha bought it for dinner and i ate 2 pcs.. kyaaa.. i will miss this even though we have this in our country but it wasnt the same taste and we barely ate at fast food nor restaurant.

haayy....

anyways.. big bang finally have their comeback.. uhmm.. i really like blue but.. i dunno fantastic baby. its kayit seems it has the same tune of the other western hip hop song.. like the boomshakalaka thing.. and the work it.. it sounds so familiar to me.. haaisshh.. and i am not liking GD's hairstyle.. but DAE was so guapo with blonde..

here's their awesome perf... kya.. flailing once again.. awesome-ness ,fantastic baby.. and the stage was so daebak.. especially the blue perf and the fantastic baby stages.. omg.. it was so fantastic, ultra cool.. the YG is really the best in comeback stages.. they really prepared and think of the stages,, the presentation is beyond words of wonder... super ♥... and during the bad boy perf.. you will see GD's hair hanging on one side i dunno.. he was like boy george.. but maybe it will grow on me after i see more of it .. hehehe...about Taeyang, of course he's still flawless and so smooth in dancing.. and TOP, he kind of suit all color hair type.. just dont try to copy gd's experimentation of fashion.. hehe.. he's gorgeous enough.. and Seungri.. yeah still, he's my least BB.. and he has new piercing on ear..

mommy went to bicol together with tita nina.. to my uncle.. tito nanding sorry if i wasnt able to attend your wake and sorry if i cant help financially. thank you because i know the time you spent with us before was also worthwhile even though that you and dad clashed before, it was all in the past and if ever you're gonna see dad.. please give our warmest regards.. we miss him dearly. Rest in Peace tito NANDING!!

about work, still no updates.. haay.. where i can get money.. and its been two days since i last texted sir abdul aziz saying sorry for his project but he didnt reply.. is he mad.. damn... i wsih i could help him but i wasnt able to copy his files at al aseel.. haaiisshh.. sir abdul please say something.. i really don't want to include you in my misery. SO SORRY!...

maligayang kaarawan sa aking pinakamamahal na INA, the best mom in the world.

Happy birthday mommy, you dont know how much you mean to us ni kuya... we're very sorry cause until now we havent' repaid the love and care you've showered to us especially me.. i've been a unproductive daughter to you in any ways...

just please ma, hold on and wait for some time... always be healthy and lovely always...

i wish you could feel the bountiful love we have for you!

SORRY for all the mistakes i did in the past.....

We love you so much! muahhhhh...

anyeong....

another year has come, its been two years since my daddy left this world behind.. this is the time of the year where all soul was being visited by their loved ones... and we came a day early... dadi.. bogoshipda!! we miss you and thanks for watching over us!!! we love you ....

hello... it's my kuya's bday and since i am back here in the ph, so we celebrated it with my mami and tita... tita cooked palabok..yummy!!  kuya... thanks for supporting me and deciding to give me another chance to find my life improvements... im really hoping that this time i will finally have a time to shine on my own..im really sick the way my life goes on! thanks for the understanding both to you and carol...

kon'....

yatta.. *saeng il chukha hamnida alex-sshi,* chukahae

bebe, i hope you will stay beautiful and intelligent as you are.. and be obedient na ha..

we love you and wish all the best, you're lucky enough to have us..soon you will understand what we wanted you to become....

stay beautiful,brainy, and please dont be makulit at matigas ang ulo!!!!

saranghae!!!♥♥