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kon..

until when will im gonna wait for that cancellation..
since then my life was shattered and not every single thing is happening okay..
it was really a devastating experience for me..
my life was so much stress and feels like trapped in a cell.

whoa.. i never dreamed of any of this to happen..i just wanted a new and with a direction life.. plus i really wanted to help mommy and give her things that she didn't get to enjoy before but what happen.. i'll just add another misery.. huhuhu

yesterday met up with lyn.. uhmm. what can i say.. she really thinks im stupid right.. im just being me.. cause i aint suspect anybody that they were just after an advantage..but ill just let her.. anyways...

i still hope i could save some before i left but.. it seems i cant now because i was in prison here.. KUYA why wont' you understand, i am careful and don't think of more negative things will happen..

maybe i should have to lead my life on... so now i understand you LORD you want me to stand on my own right.,.that's why this things happen.. don't worry LORD i remember this experience.. and make it as a teacher.. i will learn to lead my life by myself..