Can't help not to be sad, since we're experiencing some trials along the way and it really aches me seeing and passing along the path that god has given us.   so hate myself so much right now, i wasn't any of help on my mom's feelings, i can't say things what i wanted to say, i'm still the same stuck up on my way of life, i can't talk to anybody how i truly feel, argh.. i was always have the  feeling guilt whenever i checked fb, this is the most simplest and worrisome christmas ever for me. i just hate me... dapat bang maging masaya talaga pag pasko? (should we be really happy when christmas day arrive?)  Sorry for being such an emo today, it just that u really hate me..........................

happy birthday jesus, thank you for coming into the world. thank you for all the blessings and challenges, lord i know that it is me who has been bad and done nothing for my mom, she doesn't deserved any of this suffering, please Lord help us to overcome this predicament, im begging you please, please take away the pains she's undertaking, it really ache my hearts to see her like that.  I know you've given this to us because you believe that we're strong enough to make this through but please we're asking for your guidance and help, thank you so much.

omo,  its been months ive been on a hiatus.. what happen again to me.. anyways im glad i finally able to sign in again because i did forget my account here..so sorry..since this is my first ever online blog.. okay.. my LIFE is really a MESS still... why oh why.. i am really such a DORK.. sorry...

okay hasta lavista baby..

ciao...

anyeong..
jacq please wake up you've been on hiatus for months... you've told yourself many positive things and even bring yourself down.. now is not the time for thinking how to plan your life instead you should grabbed any opportunity that comes on your way, dont lose any of it.. you've wasted enough...
Sorry mom and dad for you have brought up a person like me in this world you dont deserve a daughter like me.. i've been an asshole, and even to my brother i've been like a cross that they should bear.. i know that they have given me many chances already and i blew it all up.. DAMN you JACQ!!!! when will you wake up.. you've missed the beauty of life.. shIt.. i hate myself so much... huhuhuhuhu!!!

DAMN YOU MUCH!!!! pretty please move on and do something for yourself.. MOM its not your fault its mehh.. im such a coward... and lazy person... waaaaaahhh..... i needed to express myself more.. i always bottled up my feelings maybe that's the reason why i am like this..i should release what i feel inside.. huhuhu.. i need a helping hand most especially an ear who will listen on my peers..someone who will cheer and says everything will be just fine. why am i so alonE!!!?????

anyeong..

since i am back in PH, of course for almost a decade now.. me and my mom didnt failed to do these christian practices during lenten season.....

wherein we visit churches.. and had a little prayer and commemorating the hardships that god had undergone in order to wash away the sins of the people. since we are only now three, me, mom and ta loi went together.

anyeong!

errrhh.. sleeping to the max, and eat..haay what a life.. boredom..

i know i've talked about ali.. im still scared. but he was asking for marriage?? i dunno know if he's serious or what..but i can feel his arrgghh.. i dunno.. we chatted and made things that i dunno.. arrgghhh...

should i just go with the flow..whats happening to me.. LORD...

konnichiwa minna...

yeah finally i was able to go on board.. what do i feel.. im happy and sd.. i have been telling you before that i was really torn on my feelings.. sigh..i dunno how to start  new life..im back to being down again. sighness overload.

finally ali called me, but he put down the fon..i dunno.. i texted sir sultan but he repied who is this.. yeha i was hurt,, it seems that he deleted already my number.huhhuhu...

it was kinda uneasy and bumpy flight. i still dont know what will i do.. huhu..if only kuya make me have a choice. im a failure...

arrived at 3:15pm but i was able to get my luggage around 3:50pm and mommy is the one who make sundo. haay..sorry i failed you all.. i was nothing.. i hate me...

saw vanilla and alex.. ang kukulit pa rin.. even emty was so noisy. miss u my baby!!

finally back at the philippines. sighnessssssssssss....

anyeong!

omo.. i wasnt able to get on board.. sadness.. we even had breakfast at mcdo.. anyways... they were many stories talaga about sa pag uwe na to.. dame ng sacrifice at na perwisyo sa fully booked ng etihad.

i've got a call from an etihad staff this morning sayang .. around 9am ..sabi niya i can finally get on board but the sad situation is that i wasnt at the airport.. sayangness talaag.nde na ko makakaabot eh..if she called a lil earlier.. haaayyy...

then we went to mass... maybe this is it i should have experience the palm sunday here.. anyways.they were date leaves being given as the palaspas.. and luckily at the end of the mass we were able to get inside the church to make the palaspas be blessed and ourselves as well.. so maybe this is it na talaga.

it was lolo jose first year death anniversary. lolo whereevr you are i hope you are happy with lola and plese help us in all the problems and keep watching over our safety.

then at night we went to al wahda to pay for the etisalat and checked the supermarket  for the water dispenser and some things lie table,chairs, that they need for their new room. but we did not find any ..and decided to just go to the emirates discount we just go their walking and this store was really huge that even if just by looking you will feel very tired. haaayy...

in the end we did not bought what we re supposed to buy.. we just bought some baon.. haaiissh.. and went to the airport after..me and carol bought my luggage this time because it seems that it is now really sure.. and thanks god this is it...

haller....

last night, kha was so busy... naking ayos their new room. haayy i dont know how to help but she told me to just dont mind her at all.. because she still dont know how to arrange the rooms, but what to do..i feel unease.. anyways i sleep early.. not knowing that kha..still stay up late and you know made their laundry.  Today the etisalat agent came.. we didnt know that it would took that long.. because we planned to go in green house to look for the water dispenser and table and some of the things that they needed. 

then kuya called that maybe i should try tonight if i can the 3am flight.. and we had this lil argument.. because i want him to at least have a 60/40 chance that i can get on board.. but he said that i should at least try because he cant be sure.. and he's been worried also on the expenses i've had going to the airport.. and i said that yeha i know it was really a loss and nanghihinayang ako.. then he said.. oh you're the one who's really worried for the money wherein that isnt your money after all.. and i said. yeah that's why i am so ashamed because that's not money.. haaaiissshh.. kuya... i really dont know what you think of me.. i feel i've sacrificed enough but you cant get what i did.. haaayy buhay i so freaking hate it.  

try the morning flight and still saw the same faces i saw before.. this is my third try..
i even put on make up and wear a blazer.. still unlucky..

and kuya just entrusted me to their friend.. still didnt get in..
kuya gave me 50dhms for the taxi fare.. but mike insisted that we can take a bus.. and i feel so embarrassed for causing any inconvenience/troubles.. huhuhu..

went to al falah to buy food for our dinner.. haaaissshhh..

was there something unfinished business for me that's why i cant get out from here??
i was thinking.. does it concern the call i receive before, or it was because of sir abdul aziz thesis.. aiisshh...

anyway's its getting hot here.. it will be summer soon.

anyeong....

omo.. i hope i can go home na.. aiissshh... nakakaloka na ang aking luggage.. huhuhhu..
i still saw same people, waiting for their chances... omo...depressing...

the money, the expenses, the effort.. aisssshh..

the only thing that's good is that i can enjoy the free wifi....

but nothing's happen....

haller..

wake up early because we\ll try to have a chance for this am flight. but yeaahhh.. we were'nt that much lucky.. heard that some of the chance passengers have tried thrice already but wasnt able to..

so just packed things again..

hope this midnight i can fly.

help us lord.thanks for today.....

there still option if i really wanted to go home to manila ..is that i can make a connecting flight through bangkok, singapore, hong kong,jakarta or kuala lumpur. i can buy tickets their going to manila but i still need money of course for another ticket.but since its the season for vacay, the tickets are pricely.. i need at least 1500 to 2500 dhms just for one way ticket to manila.. but the problem of course..MONEY!!!!!

please LORD, we will believe on your HANDS! thanks...and sorry..

anyeong!

today is a lucky day ... weeeeehhh. 

we move some of the things to the new room that kuya and kha will renting in. and then attended 12pm mass. while on the taxi cab,behind the driver's seat, i saw a 1dirham coin.. phew for the first time in my stay here, i was able to pick up a coin..and said that maybe it is a lucky coin.

after we went to abu dhabi mall because kha bought some padala that she will fill her package box so that they would not bring it over to their new room. and kuya said that i can still buy some padala too, that cost 100dhms.. so i bought 2 olay cream for momi and mita. and t-shirts for me.. the shirts are bargain so i was able to bought 3 and 1 shorts.. they were big sizes on the shirt that i like.. weeehh, am i being really lucky. and then pack things again. me and kha were busy packing all day. the canned goods i bought are really heavy.thanks to kha's package.. i asked her if i can make pasabay ... then that's why my problem for my luggage was being solved. we bought kubos and henna powder.wheeew....

and kha was able to finish her package box and deliver it to the luzan.. hope it will reach PH in good condition.

thank you LORD for this day. everything goes smoothly. kuya gave up that i cant fly this midnight. aww.. i forgot i've spend the lucky coin..huhuhu.. but there were still 1 dirham coin left..hope this will bring luck for the coming days.

i was able to chat with ali, hmm.. i dunno.. is it him, do i consider him???? confused......

omo.. before the day ends.. my ex-boss called kuya..and he says that he will just give my passport because he was not sure if he can go... thanks LORD.... so we didnt let the chance slip away.. even if the cons is that kuya will going to take taxi. thanks lucky coin.

so sorry until now i was causing disturbance and financial problems to kuya and kha.. huhuhu.. hope i can make the flight tomorrow morning

anyeong...

its nino giffy.. yay....

my flighttoday has been cancelled because my ex-animalistic behaviour boss are not available.. my passport was still with him..so kuya has to re-sched my flight.. and it was just okay because there was only 3 chance passenger were able to make it.

i just helped kuya bring some of the packed things in their new rented room, the room is okay and big..but the flat seems crowded.i hope they will be okay there.

and i was able to go to lulu hypermarket, and bought cheese and choco. and then bought some ingredients for chicken afrida.

nothing much happen, just continue packing my things while kha is packing theirs too..

konnichiwa

mixed emotions minna.. i've already been cancelled and i have my flight this 3am..on the 22nd.. haayy.. i wanted to go home but i also wanted to stay here..because i have so many things i want to do..but the opportunities are being unlucky... sigh...

i wanted to voice out how bad my ex-employer ..how he broke my opportunities to grow, start renewing my life.. damn..he's really bad..i hate him..im cursing him.

and i've chatted to this egyptian guy.. should i give in.. arggghh..desperate... i dunno.what should i do..

been packing things and it was hard.. .. the problems in the rented room of kuya and kha still goes on ..but they decided to move out..arrgghh..expenses again for them..they saw a room near here.. but the rent is higher.. i hope someday i can repay them.. arrgghh.. money money you're so bad..

anyeong.. waahhh

finally decided to have some little fun before i went back to ph,. i went to dubai..to see and visit my bestfriend louise... i know kuya was mad and carol was even madder for my being hard headed.. sorry i have to do this for myself naman.. i cant just sit and stare blankly na lang here sa house.. i do really understand how you just want my safety and no more problems..but i have to do it..take a risk..but somehow i didnt get to enjoy much..since i know that they are mad..

we just stroll around.. actually i now know louise problem about her ex-boyfriend.. sighh.. i was really surprise because of the reason.. but anyways... i hope she can move on.. sorry all i can say that im sorry i dont have enough experience in love that's why i cannot much fully understand how deep her love was to her ex-bf. i havent loved anyone before .. because im such a loser...

we went to battuta mall.. together with her brother.. i was also amazed for his accommodating me.. unyo salamat although sana i just want to say ...lend me money instead of letting us eat at fancy restaurant..but thanks to both of you..some of my sentiments become a reality.. i hope to pay you back in the future.. heehhee..just take care of your health.. both of you. we had dinner at mango tree at dubai mall.. it is a thai restaurant. yeahh the food is just ok..especially the noodle..i want to cook that for my family.


take some pictures.. it was unyo's cam.. so ill post next time.
went home before 12am.. whoa..until now and here i am a cinderella.. hehehe

damn, while im in dubai, kuya and ate lili was shocked,because the validiya had made spot checking..the same problem in the house before.. they knock so hard on the doors and question them, why they are still here. i dunno.. and then the validiya asks kuya.for a papers.. i guess for marriage certf. i dunno.. was it a blessing in disguise that i wasnt here when the house was being checked. because they were going to ask for my papers too.if they saw me here .. right? the validiya told them to evacuate and take their things outside because they were going to locked up and shutdown the building. sigh.....i didnt know .. and kha was really cold to me when i got home..phewww...
maybe that's why the whole time im with louise im kinda uneasy because this things happen while im gone. sighh..

anyeong

aahh.. should i find love just.. arrgghh... im getting frustrated again...

i want change...
hmm... talk to kim.. my high school batch mate can she really help me. huhuhu.. do i really want to stay here?? what worries me is about kuya.. hmm.. i dunno.. but i should give it a try ..right??
haay.. kakaloka talaga.. ewan bahala na.. aiyee.. big bang was so cool talaga.. i cant keep out on humming their songs on my hear.. so to post their first mv... off the alive album.. uhmm.. come to think of it.. it suits me. i should be *alive* and be able to stand up again... *bb fighting*

 im singing my bluessssssssssss.....

the bomb.. big bang.. so so love you guys.. you never made me disappoint on your music and you always re-invent yourself whenever you have a comeback.. bb hwaiting!!!

konnichiwa...

i said there should be no mre tears onwards...jacque wake up.. time to let go and start a new life..
enjoy the days that you are still here.. you cant turn back time.. just please... dont cry anymore..

you shouldnt let the money revolve around you... yeah t was soo saddening and awful experience but you have to move on and stand uo again..stop that feeling sorry for yourself, because no one can help you but tyou yourself.. there's even more aggravating story that you have.. just be thankful you're going home in one piece and still intact.

arrgghh.. and please lovelife where are you???? maybe i was also wrong in my intention in searching for love, that's why i cant find him.. and i am already getting pissed at myself again.. huuhu

 just finished watching the big bang special come back for their alive album..whoa.. i didnt know that they were in the verge of collapsing in spite of the recognition they get from japan and mtv europe..

 after all the struggles,scandals and accidents that happen to them last year.. they are now back stronger and much matured..and daesung made this song that i kinda relate to.yeaahh i wanna shout it all out..

anyeong..

it was so upsetting yesterday and today...

first my cousin invited me to go to dubai.. but we had this misunderstanding before so kuya doesnt believe her anymore..so let's say kuya really wanted to cut off any communication with her.. and dont want to bother them and vice versa to bother us. for me and mommy it was all in the past and we dont mind that anymore.. i didnt know that kuya still hold this grudge.. so in short he didnt permit me to go.. which is so sad and upsetting for e because i've been spoiling my life for almost a month here in the house where even i didnt do anything .. why i am being punished.. yes i saw this as punishment not as a pre caution or any safety.. but kuya still insisted that this is for our safety ... omg!!
i just dot want to argue nor fight with him so i justfollow his wishes.. but this is so much. i feel like im in prison here.. omo.. huhuhuu..
i was realy really mad at myself why this things happens to us.. im really such a failure...
and kuya this way of yours is not good too.. ill pity your family if you continue on like this...

huhuuhuuuu.... for this entire saturday i was just here...
and i told you before that i was talking this egyptian guy.. i dunno.. is he the one.. huuhuhuhu.. but i want white/caucasian... because i know we had different custom... but arrghh.. i dunno...

kon...

its aiba-chan.. happy ne'.....

hehehe.. finally i was able to sign my visa cancellation.. i wish this will be finished asap.. haaayy...
still this ex-employer of mine was giving a crap explanation..

day-16.. shucks 1/2 months are already been spoiled... because of this damn problem of mine.

anyways.. i said that i shouldnt be that sad and mad anymore.. because the pimples i had over worrying things like that are all in my cheeks..and please..just go away.... im too much ugly...

i've got to chat to this egyptian guy and it seems that he's nice..but he's a muslim.. haay..
anyways.. ciao...

anyeong

i wake up because of ate maricel's call, and even if i was hesitant at first to talk about my situation but somehow, she has an idea what happen ne'.. so that's it i was able to tell her my misery and again she offered some help, what can i do?? because i really need someone who can help me, but kuya called and told him about ate maricel..and of course he told me to hold back because he wants to settle it first, but deep inside i really wanted ate's help. and then i called abdulla, he said that i'll call again at 6pm for my cancellation, omg, i told him already that i wanted to go home badly and my mom was so worried about me.  Aisshh, i know it was just his delaying tactic,, arrgghhh.. i really hate them. i hope this will gonna stop sooner.

mommy's back from tito nanding's funeral and i told her about ate maricel help, and we chatted. i told her that let me first sign the cancellation before ate maricel join in the talks...

haaayyy...


fangirl note*

aiyee.. i havent seen any new arashi vids and havent watched any new arashi perf but this one ill post...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhVNIFbj30Q&feature=relatedenjoy minna-

i've signed my cancellation.. wtf.. they really continue my residence visa application.so now i have a six months ban here..oh greatt.. and what did he say.. im just too young to understand.. no kuya and kha are just too kind and naive. pheww... wtf?? my ex-employer... arrgghh.. im really mad...

kon...

i guess i have to stop sour grape-ing and have to move on with my life.. okay things turned out bad, that's it.. i have to let go and face a new cycle of life.. i can\t turn back time and have to admit that i made the wrong choice.. i can't live forever on the past.  The anger is still burning and but ottoke?? we cant change it.. it all happened already.. and the sure real thing now  is i have to move on and find a new better way to restart my life and face the day with courage and happy spirit. go.. go..go..
kwenchana... gambatte.. hwaiting/fighting! thanks be god for a brand new start.

yesterday i watched bigbang guesting in Runnin Man...

julz give this new site for running man engsubbed yatta.
ehhh.. julz again just share this site for big bangs streaming english subbed vid.
big bang eng subbed streaming vid

another news.. i know i've been avoiding about arashi because i might get addicted tot hem and i dont have the leisure to but what can i do ?? they are the one i live my life for.. i mean they are one of my dreams ... i wanted to watch them perform live even once, just like bigbang.. i wanna see them in concert but i want to see arashi first.. more than bigbang.. i dunno but all these dreams and plans have fallen apart because of that damn al aseel... you really ruined my life.. anyways stop of that, im so full of it.. let's get back to my fangirling..

and so here's the news about..
 "
It has been reported Arashi were in Odaiba, Tokyo, on March 13 to appear at Fuji TV’s “華嵐 (Hana-Arashi)” campaign event.  A model of what Tokyo Tower will look like this Friday night showed the tower covered from top to bottom in Arashi’s group colours blue, red, green, yellow, and purple."

oricon news link
english news link

the tower were gonna be lighted according to the arashi's color.. and it was arranged by the age bracket.. you can see that blue is in the lowest part because he is the foundation/leader and oldest member of ARASHI.. its OH-chan.. and sho, aiba,nino and jun being the youngest.  aiyee.. my two biases oh-chan and jun bebe.....

so till here.. im still gonna watch the second part guesting of bigbang at RM. hehehe.. its payback time for haroro..


ciao!!

and oh before i forget HAPPY WHITE DAY.....
its a tradition by the Japanese where the guy supposed to give back the girls chocolates,flower, not necessarily white.. it was the opposite of valentines day.. because in their country valentines is a time where girls are giving the boy/guy some sweets.. but in the Philippines it was the guy who should give those.. it was only for the past years i've heard about the white day.. it was also being celebrated in China, Taiwan and South Korea.. it was celebrated one month after the valentines day.
happy white day

muahhhhhhh....


arrghh, and i have to call my employer because my brother said so.. he said that i should just lower my voice and dont say anything.. just follow and listen to what he will say.. you know what,my heart and mind  still bursting with anger.. arrgghhh.. and so i just called him a few minutes back.. his voice was calm.. i dunno the background is noisy it was like sounds from tv.. heck i dont care.. i told him that it was I maybe he has forgotten about me.. and i ask him about the feedback, and he just only said call me tomorrow.. fuck... and i told him that my mother was really worried and i really wanted to go home. huhuhuuh.. jebal.. jebal.. i wanna go home.. if this is the life waiting for me.. i am really like in a prison.. huhuhuu..

anyeong...


i dunno if its right but i have the feel to change something for this blog although i know i spent time doing my banner.. hmm.. i really wanna learn how this html works.. i want a real template of mine..huhuhu..

i ate too much last night cause its the 2nd time during my 4mos here to eat at KFC.. hahaha.. that's how boring and super tipid i am. kuya and kha bought it for dinner and i ate 2 pcs.. kyaaa.. i will miss this even though we have this in our country but it wasnt the same taste and we barely ate at fast food nor restaurant.

haayy....

anyways.. big bang finally have their comeback.. uhmm.. i really like blue but.. i dunno fantastic baby. its kayit seems it has the same tune of the other western hip hop song.. like the boomshakalaka thing.. and the work it.. it sounds so familiar to me.. haaisshh.. and i am not liking GD's hairstyle.. but DAE was so guapo with blonde..

here's their awesome perf... kya.. flailing once again.. awesome-ness ,fantastic baby.. and the stage was so daebak.. especially the blue perf and the fantastic baby stages.. omg.. it was so fantastic, ultra cool.. the YG is really the best in comeback stages.. they really prepared and think of the stages,, the presentation is beyond words of wonder... super ♥... and during the bad boy perf.. you will see GD's hair hanging on one side i dunno.. he was like boy george.. but maybe it will grow on me after i see more of it .. hehehe...about Taeyang, of course he's still flawless and so smooth in dancing.. and TOP, he kind of suit all color hair type.. just dont try to copy gd's experimentation of fashion.. hehe.. he's gorgeous enough.. and Seungri.. yeah still, he's my least BB.. and he has new piercing on ear..

mommy went to bicol together with tita nina.. to my uncle.. tito nanding sorry if i wasnt able to attend your wake and sorry if i cant help financially. thank you because i know the time you spent with us before was also worthwhile even though that you and dad clashed before, it was all in the past and if ever you're gonna see dad.. please give our warmest regards.. we miss him dearly. Rest in Peace tito NANDING!!

about work, still no updates.. haay.. where i can get money.. and its been two days since i last texted sir abdul aziz saying sorry for his project but he didnt reply.. is he mad.. damn... i wsih i could help him but i wasnt able to copy his files at al aseel.. haaiisshh.. sir abdul please say something.. i really don't want to include you in my misery. SO SORRY!...

kon..

until when will im gonna wait for that cancellation..
since then my life was shattered and not every single thing is happening okay..
it was really a devastating experience for me..
my life was so much stress and feels like trapped in a cell.

whoa.. i never dreamed of any of this to happen..i just wanted a new and with a direction life.. plus i really wanted to help mommy and give her things that she didn't get to enjoy before but what happen.. i'll just add another misery.. huhuhu

yesterday met up with lyn.. uhmm. what can i say.. she really thinks im stupid right.. im just being me.. cause i aint suspect anybody that they were just after an advantage..but ill just let her.. anyways...

i still hope i could save some before i left but.. it seems i cant now because i was in prison here.. KUYA why wont' you understand, i am careful and don't think of more negative things will happen..

maybe i should have to lead my life on... so now i understand you LORD you want me to stand on my own right.,.that's why this things happen.. don't worry LORD i remember this experience.. and make it as a teacher.. i will learn to lead my life by myself..

anyeong..

kuya told me that he called abdulla and said that they already received my labor card and they sent it back for my cancellation and it may take a week pa daw.. haaay life..

now that i am reflecting.. i believe that this is the worst that happen to me..
first i havent got to enjoy auh, and i never bought things for myself..
i mean i was really really broke.. i have so many things i sacrifice during this time but i didnt get any.. huhuhu.. LORD this 2012 was full of trials... i know this is one of your way on reminding us that you're not neglecting us.. you were just showing us how can we be strong during this times of trials.. but i gave up and didnt wait for your sweet prize.. so sorry LORD..

for this time of my trip here..i wasnt able to enjoy auh.. lesser time on mall.. lesser time on looking on shops..didnt able to eat on fancy restaurant.

sooooooo sad....

aissshhh nande?? ottoke??

why do people needs money???

nakakasawa na ang buhay..

should i???

waaaaaaaaaaahhh..........

im really going insane na here...
waahhh....

just lying in bed all day..
i've nowhere to go and no one to talk with..
esp. no money..

heard a bad news.. one of my mommy's brother passed away..
so sorry i cant help with financial problem..
tito.. i hope you would understand our situation.. we will help if we have but right now things arent okay for us..

i can only help with prayers...
GOD wherever tito is please help him find eternal peace....

anyeong..


heard mass today together wit kha and kuya of course...
uhhmm.. LORD i now realize that you really hear your children's prayers.. but i just have to be careful ne'....

anyways thanks..

watch the philippine news..it was so frustrating too...
waaahh.. nakakaloka na ang buhay ko....

i need you.....................

kon'

its my eighth day waiting for my exile to ph.. hehehe.. can't wait....

kuya arent calling talaween.. ammppness... kuya talaga... why not pressure them.. we've paid everything... we shouldnt have to be afraid right.. why are we like this.. we are the one who's being fooled.. but why do we keep on bowing to them.. shit al aseel ....shit talaween...


almost done with my pasalubong list kila mommy.. haay ubos na din ung bigay ni kuya.. and guess what carol gave me 100dhms.. she said i can't tell kuya about it.. i plan not to use it and gave it to mommy along with the 1kphp that kuya gave.. haaayy..

i hope i can find a part time.. i swear im going insane.... i want to buy something for myself pa naman.. haaayyyy...

anyeong..

finally mission accomplished i was able to deliver the food to aubrey and sir SULTAN.. yes you've heard it.. i already have sir netcafe's name.. i asked one of the staff about his name.. and i really thought when i called him at 5 pm.. he's not picking up the phone.. he wont talk to me.. because he might think im in trouble again or what.. i went first to aubrey..still talk about the never ending sad story of my life.. nakakasawa na rin pala.. but its the reality...

i called sir sultan 6:30 pm he said he'll be at shop after 30 minutes.. and i dint told  kuya nor kha where i am going so i know they'll be worried but i cant tell them that im going to sir.. anyways.. i do come and he's waiting outside... i was ashamed because argghh.. then whoa.. actually the shop was almost full..and all boys playing DOTA... i thought i can have a quiet and nice talk with sir..but it looks like he doesnt have an office. he's just roaming around.. when i told him i have something to give..he said first its okay..he wont take it.. so i just said ill give it to his staff but he changes his mind he said he'll take it.. i said i cook it and its tuna pasta, i ask if he eat tuna.. he didnt said anything.. i dunno... hmmppff. and i remember i told him on the fon about a friend and he asked me if she's married and how old.. ammppness.. kakaririn mo sir??  but we never spoke about it because he's also kind of busy... he talks to his client and then one thing he's not around so i mostly talk to his staff.. he said what's going on.. told him i still dont have my papers.. and then he said why not go to ministry of labor.. i said my brother don't want a long process.. just after my cancellation.. i'll just go back to the philippines.. huhhu..and he said that i should be going .... yeah i know because i keep on talking in the counter and his staff can't concentrate after all its work hours.. its just that he is really kind.

while on my way home... kuya called and  i was at the spark building so im almost home.. sorry.. i know you were just worried..but i dont want to cause trouble.. but i have things to do.. plus im really very careful. why my life has turned like this.. why i became like a prisoner.. huhuuhuu.....

d-7..yes.. its been one week since the end of my misery at al aseel but the beginning of my after misery at al aseel.. still they are the same very reason why i am locked up... shit!! i sooooo hate them.. i want to contact sir abdul aziz.. huhhuu..

i wish i could just pick up money .. at least i would have to call it my own.. huhuhuh crying crying....
who will help me end this misery..??

anyeong.. i've replaced my banner.. yeah.. i was saying goodbye to uae na.. because i know there's no chance.. and guess what im excited to be back home... i miss so many things...
although there were things here that i regret leaving.. of corse i know to myself that if there were just some good opportunity... i can make it here.. huhuhu..its just that i wasnt lucky... maybe this is what my palm lines say.....

omo... i went out.. because i really wanted to give something to sir netcafe and aubrey too.. they were the two people whom i talk with my feelings honestly here.. sorry kha and kuya.. they should be the two of you.. but i cant bear to complain and say rants to you.. but either way the two of you who really help me through..sorry i wasnt that strong enough and i should repay you someday.. i just hope that you can still forgive me.. i know the relationship isnt like that before especially to kha.. i was really ashamed and embarrassed , i know the two of you didnt' have any short coming on advising me its just that i dont like the feeling of working and wasting my time there at AL ASEEL... because that's what i feel even if i do my best there were be faults and they are the kind of people who are so greedy and will do anything to for money... and there's this person i am sorry with... sir abdul aziz.. i really want to help you with your thesis..its just that you become a victim also.. just like me... arrgghh.. so sorryy... really am sorry..and of course to mom and mita.. sorry i wasnt able to repay back anything...here i am again.. so lord please help me to stand back again....
huhuhu....

i'll be making kimbap without the seaweed wrapper because i cant see one here.. ope it will be successful.. aja!!

anyeong.. waahh.. i was really rally bored but i cant watch korean series.. of course... i cant be stable.. knowing that i made such a big mess...

we call at Talaween.. still... they said that they were still waiting for my labor card and then i can sign the cancellation paper.. pheww.. damn you.. for ruining everything....

we heard mass last night and the gospel is all about God's transfiguration and the first reading is about sacrificing...
demo.. its confusing right.. the first one ... it says that you should know how to sacrifice.. no matter if it takes a life.. huhuhuu..sorry i know i didnt sacrifice till the end..that's why i didnt see the fruitful ending...

and then for the gospel is all about transfiguration.. yeah.. i know that there should be change.. that's why i cant go on working for them.. i think that they dont deserve to be served.... they are bad people gomenasai.. for thinking or judging too quick.. but i just want another chance LORD.. pleasse......

and at least kha and kuya are now okay...

 

told you i have so many free time... 

anyeong....

i feel so worthless and non-existent person.....
wth, has happen... i hope something good will gonna happen today...

yesterday kha and kuya have this misunderstanding.. i dont really know what happen but kuya just said because he ask kha to iron his uniform.. maybe kha was really tired or what.. i dunno...

then that's it total gloomy atmosphere...

that night kha also went out..i dunno where.. i fried fish for dinner but nobody eat.... even i didnt because of the sad situation.

then this morning.. kha didnt also eat the fish i've fried... maybe she's also mad at me.. i dunno know how to face her... huhuhu...

and i received a call yesterday.. although i wasnt able to pick it up because im doing my laundry.. when i search the number inthe internet.. it says it was a number from the abu dhabi education ministry... huhu..i've got frightened..what if somebody told that i was doing school projects.. omg.. would i happen to have a case also for them.. oh gosshh...
and that number also lsted as fax.. which was own naman by a mobile phone trading co.. chorva.. huhu.. i dont have the nerve to return back the call because i dunno what to say..but if they call again and i was holding the fon..sure i'll answer it to finish my worries. huhuu..

SUCKING WEEK OF MY LIFE..... and its all because of DAMN AL ASEEL...

huhuhuhu..
why everything is so hard..
did i wish for more?

LORD.. why does this happen.. am i all about complain???

i try my hardest to hold on, but i dont feel alright...
they say i should be happy with my job.. that i should be okay.. but everytime it's time to work i feel like in a hell.... im sorry.. yeah..maybe im just over reacting.. okay i have happy moments too.. its because of the nice customer i met.. especially grandma.. she's so sweet.. im sorry that our meeting would end now.. ill surely miss her...

and mami post this via her fb friend..

 you know who that number 1 are.. i feel like my decision is correct.. but many are being drag down because of me... IM SO SORRY!.....

i really wanted to try my luck here..but they gave up on me.. maybe really i have no luck here... GOD.. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!
and sorry for not being such a fighter... i've lost and i am a failure....

okay i was now free from that hell place.. AL ASEEL PRINTING SERVICES....

but i never ever thought that this was really serious...

i thought everything would be just fine.. if i quit quietly.. but still they hold me back..
i never thought that this process was going be like this..
when my brother and kha pay for my release, they were no settlement documents.. because it was all about trust and respect.. but now what happen.. the night of my last day.. they did something horrible to me.. OMG!! that went so far.. now that i've realized maybe that 500 is for the project i didnt finish.. i really wanted to contact sir abdul aziz but what will i do.. my kuya and kha forbid me not to contact any one related from them.. because it might become, one of my problem in the future.. ottoke?
and i cant go out because i dont have any papers on me...
i dont have any copy of my national id nor the passport.. they are all holding it.. even if i paid them already..
damn.. it was just only JEN who told about it last night..

kuya wanted me to go home.. although there's a part of me i dont want to.. because i dont have anything again... huhuhu.. who should i call.. even my sim.. they told me to take it out..

i really wanted to stay pa.. its just nobody support me now.. they gave up on me...

and i've been pestering sir from internet cafe.. thanks to you.. i really don't know how to repay you.. and i dont even have your name..but i always disturb you. thank you so much i just hope someday i can repay you....

LORD what should i do?? i am in house arrest because i dont have papers on me.

yaaahh.. what did i do??
but i feel okay and happy now.. although i have caused much problems to kha and mike..
ill find a way to solve things please just bear with me again...

they already talk to sir abdulla.. and i didnt ask how much they pay him.. but i think it was like 4k dhms.. whoaa that's a lot... and the bad news is that i already have ban of 6 months... greaatt..

and then i told you that i was also holding the cashier.. and you know what they did... they make me have a shortage of 500.. isnt that unbelievable... 500 exactly.. i told them that i would never have that shortage...

they say that they will call the police.. we waited  but no one came.. and of course i disturb carol adn jen.. but to make the story short.. carol and kuya decided to pay the 500.. damn.. those fucking liers and money lovers.... i swore to the grave that they will never have a quiet life....

the sad life story of ine in AUH.... fuck!!!!
this time is sadder because i was never able to get any and the money i've used up!! is soooo much.. i think it was like 200k php.. DAMN!!! AL ASEEL PRINTING SERVICES.

i think this what happen... in the cash receiving form and the small receipt..it tallied but in the cash register reading it did not.. so it means someone might have punched that damn 500.. and they are not letting me see that 500 punched in the total cash reg..  so there is something really wrong. they did not let us compare the small receipt to the total reading.. CURSE CURSE YOU!

malak you know the truth, i did nothing wrong... please speak up.. how many filipino no..how many employees of your damn company have experienced like i have.... why are you just shutting up your mouth....

and i know this fucking abu salam did this...!! he just always read the cash reg every morning..so how come they read that tonight.. anyways just what kha and mike said that evenif we are right we will never gonna win.

yes.. I am!
that's why my life has never been so great.....

tsk.. tsk.. tsk...


its time to let go minna...
the bottle of oyster dropped and spilled.. and it is one of my faverite seasoning..
so this means.. im broken... im really a lousy and failed human...

sorryy............

haller..

i've talked to christine this morning..she said i can still back down since i dont have the residence visa yet..
its just that i have to pay all the expenses.. waahh..
how much would that be kaya??

i needed to break through....

i am really trying my best.. but still..

the workload are too much.. and the manners and personality of them..
are freaking me out...

christine also told me that even if she's gonna be on my place.. she cant' take it.

should i post a rainbow sign.. is there any hope i can see from the future..
sigh....

LORD is it the final sign for me to back down..
even CHRISTINE can't take it anymore...

huhuhu

oomoo..


just kill me...
tangna...

madali lang daw...
sabi mo artehan ko.. sabi mo lagyan ng mga kung anu anu..
and besides is this only the one i did..

im also doing something..
 pakyu kayo...

and then  you still have many complains..
im doing everything.. doing my best...
still not good enough.. of course i cant do it alone.. give me someone who will help me..
pakers...

haaya nakakaasar talaga..

LORD please what to do..???

waaahhh...

help i need HELP.....

sheeet...
i still have pending projects,, and these fucking madam is asking me always.. and his fucking husband.. always sees me... he's accusing me always.. SHIT AL ASEEL...

fuck that project ... so many things to scribble and add kaya....
tapos may endless complain pa...

of course i was being reported again.. and galit na galit na naman sila...

shiit.. i really wanted to go na sana kaya lang..waahhh ...
shiiitt talaga...

and there's this pinay customer was being mistreated..as in kawawa naman.. hope mag-complain sila.

and the job order of the translation..sana un lumabas..bakit andun na.. fuck..

anyeong!!


haaaayy.. thanks god its friday...

i have to stay late at bed..woke up at 11pm.. yattta!!

but still im so freakin' angry wit yabang.. argghh.. still insisting to finish the damn research tomorrow.. ottoke?????

bahala sila... ewan ko sa kanila...


will go to mass later...

LORD please let there be someone... talaga who will save me... from this slavery life at AL ASEEL..

so the girl im telling is the assistant of SIR at talaween.. haay i thought there someone na makakasama ako.. haaay..

so she talk to me this morning because tanda..make sumbong again that i wasnt doing anything again.. at im jsut talking or chit chatting.a.wtf..eh he didnt even listen to me when he ask.. pakyu talaga un.

tapos sabi pa niya lier daw ako .. dun sa pinay.. haaay waaahh


i soooo hate that place..

and still that fucking translation job order cant find.. asn ka na ba?? awaaaa
baka naman kasi na sa kanila..kasi its so impossible na mawala un..
anyways..about kay yabang ayan.. nagalit na naman kasi mali ung print ko na power point.. eh nde ko siya na gets..so i asked him again if one slide per sheet.. uu daw.. tapos ayun ginawa ko , nagalit... waaahh..tapos he said that i told you to print 9 slides in one sheet.. then i replied back.. sir i ask you again if i will print it in one page .. he said yes kaya.. pero . nde na ko pinatapos.. pakyu talaga... nde rin niya ko pinakinggan na tinanong ko siya ulit.. tapos he said yes..tangna talaga sila..


then there's 3 new projects na naman... pero case study pa.. PAKYU talaga sila..
mga hayop..

waaa...


please LORD let there be someone who will save me in this damn fucking hell place.. AL ASEEL PRINTING.. PAkers...|


ayan.. si yabang naman umariba... he sent me 2 projects which is case study questionaire and guess what.. a research.. pakyung un.. i have to finish both daw in saturday.. gago pala siya.. anung gagawin.. do it at home.. sabi ko sir research paper takes time.. eh.. gago sa pinakagago pala talaga un.. HAYOP.. bobo.. nde makaintindi.. anung gagawin ko.. please kill me now..

anyeong!


wake up early.. and kuya join me in attending the mass...
whoa... i can say that there still many catholics here...

thanks GOD i was able to fulfill this one... but i wasnt' able stick up to 30 days/40 days abstinence of meat.. i ate torta with ground beef for lunch..

then,, the same thing happen at AL ASEEL, still im scared to my two employers.... actually im scared to all of them..mga may SAYAD/Topak sa ulo!

naman, pinagalitan ako... haayy when will come a day na mawawala sa shop yang si tanda...
and there\s this document/job order that's missing and of course who's responsibility is that.. haay... they told me to look for it but they dont want me to look it in their desk, what if they mistakenly took it or what if it was inserted in the documents they have... sighness,,  what a freakin' fucking life, sorry for the bad words LORD,

and tanda told me that he doesnt want to see me at the work area, talking to allan, haaay i was just asking.. he never let me say anything..he ask me what am i doing there..but he never let me utter any word..so what a fucking person... and he even told me that bad staff was causing a damage to their equipment.. he ask again are you a bad staff.or good..of course i said im not a bad staff..and he answered.let's see... so i was under investigation..mga suspicious,basta mga bad sila. they are worried for the job orders because , they think someone may see it and make a copy.. because i know that service are not covered even doing the school project, study cases and other school related staff that concerns researching are not included in their business proposal/services.. haaay sana nga may magsumbong sa kanila and have an investigation.. let the company closed down.. mga behlat... haay so that i can escape in this hell life too. huhuhuhuhu...

im still praying for someone who will save me at the hell life....

maligayang kaarawan sa aking pinakamamahal na INA, the best mom in the world.

Happy birthday mommy, you dont know how much you mean to us ni kuya... we're very sorry cause until now we havent' repaid the love and care you've showered to us especially me.. i've been a unproductive daughter to you in any ways...

just please ma, hold on and wait for some time... always be healthy and lovely always...

i wish you could feel the bountiful love we have for you!

SORRY for all the mistakes i did in the past.....

We love you so much! muahhhhh...

kon^

yeah its my special day.. but nothing seems special.. anyways.. we celebrated it last night.. kuya and i ate at wendys then we bought ingredients for white sauce spaghetti..my bestfriend louise called me and greeted me... then you know talk a little... tod her that i was having problem form my current jib..but what to do.. thats the way life is... then cook it when i came home last night.. then went to madinat abu dhabi coop to walk after we ate the pasta....


went home at 2:00 am then sleep...  haaaiissshh...

this morning.. was so many work too.. busyness... have to make a print out...
damn... madam.. now was pointing to me that it was me who misunderstood about that printing chorva.. aiisshhh..

then have this visa application..damn again..the one who was asking for it doesnt know english so how can i communicate.. shiittt...
and its a five application.. and plus the damn slow stupid PC keeps on hanging up.. what to do???
ottoke?

what a day... and i have to take a taxi cab this afternoon because its late already.. i only have 3 dirhams and .50 fils... ottoke..
what a day...

anyways those who greeted and remembers.. THANKS... KAMSAHAMNIDA.. ARIGATO!
thank you LORD for this day..that i am still breathing .. healthy and alive...

thanks for the GRACE... thanks for everything...
my wish... HELP me to be strong..and overcome all this!
BLESS my family and friends....
HOPE that the management of AL ASEEL will change for the better..

anyeong!

told you for the last days.. that i want to give up and and i even said it to the two girls i met last time... they were the past employees of AL ASEEL, i know that they were not being treated fair.. and that they dont deserve the life they had while working and after working at AL ASEEL.. but what to do??? i have to be unselfish.. i have to think of my family and i have a reason... it just suddenly left my mind..

im thankful for their advices.. but ottoke??
just like what kuya and kha said..let them be, its their own battle...
and i have my own battle too...
which i have to face ..not to escape.. but have to survive..
so GOD i am asking you now.. HELP me to be strong and endure all the things that i should i have to..
even you, have suffered enough but you just accept your fate..so i must accept mine too...
sorry for being a COWARD.....

thanks for giving me my family!!

i just wish GOODLUCK to all of us....

anyeong..

waah


me too im confused..
okay a few days ago i've decided to let go. to give up.. but
the next day.. i feel enlightened.. its not that i am saying that i am wrong or it is not worth giving up this job.. its just that i have to remember that i am here for my a reason and that is i wanted somehow to repay my mom's love and care for us.. through giving her some material things that she should be having i mean she deserve's everything the good in life... she means so much to us..
thanks mike and carol for encouraging and sorry for making you feel uneasy and burdened...

and plus.. from the movie... the lead actress say.. that "escaping is not a survival"..
truly indeed..that's what i've come up... im just escaping.....

and the next.. the sermon of father troy last friday.. is that i should have to believe in GOD and he will let things come to a great place....

i've been getting warning's of being terminated...
i just hope that they will see that i still needed them and that i work hard and i am not denying that i still have some faults.. but please just let me breathe....

sorrryyyy....

and so the day came taht i confessed to my bro and kha, that i dont tink i can make it to work.that i am giving up..
but they open up issues that i should be strong because its hard to turn back now...
sorry if i was selfish that i feel like this..
sorry...

escaping is not a survival..
soorrryy

i met uo with the pasr employees of AL ASEEL and i can feel their hatred and their regrets.. bu what can i do.. and i feel now the iron law of this fucking company.. but what to do..
i talk to them and i am now decided but i still dont have money..

kha came to the store to check me out because i didnt go home and i am nit answering nor texting back kuya.. i know that's bad..

and this fucking old man was really a pain in my life...

gomene'

ottoke???

still.. in my heart, mind, soul and body i really wanted to give up my fucking job!
im sorry i am a failed person...
they were too much.. they all care about the fucking money...

my life was really a mess.. i sooo hate me for making the decision...

im not good in decision.. LORD what have happen to me??
huhuhuhuhu........

can you please shed a light to me once more.....????
please take me out of this damn life...

am i not really belong here????

sheeett..help me once please..

hope my family would understand how i feel....

AL ASEEL is a place for damnation...it is a hell on earth
wtf, is that rule..

the restaurant beside them is there enemies so i dont have the right to talk to any of their staff and any affiliated person in that restaurant
i have to bring a small bag only
i have to answer their call and if i wasnt to able they will deduct a 50 dhms
all the things i essed up should be deducted from me
i cant talk any longer to the filipino of course you cannot give price.

in short you have no right, you are a slave.
you have to nod always..

sorry i dont think i can follow these..

if you were given a work, you cant refuse...

FUCK!

AYAW KO NA! PASEENSIYA NA PO TALAGA!..
SORRY....

anyeong...
happy kapuso day...
demo, why it feels so dark.. cant feel any love in the air and the saddest thing is.. LYN signed her cancellation visa today. i dunno what happen .. but she was being accused by our employer as a stealer.. huhuhuhu..
i so hate this scene.. i cant take this scene.. and now i was being also interrogated by this fucking old man.. huhuhuh.. LORD help me get out.. im in so much troubled...

i feel like i was in a pitch black hole.... omg!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh..
who could save me.. do i have to go with someone.. huhuhuhuhuhu....................

actually it was given to me yesterday and i have to take taxi cab.. damn... it adds up to my expenses... aissshh... but they were looking for my visa which they didnt gave..so i called sir abdullah and told me to continue today...
okay im done and they let me sign my contract yesterday also..waahh LYN is really leaving.. ottoke????
i cant fulfill the job promise... waaahhhh

and... while on my way home this afternoon.. 2 man was asking me.. errhhh...
do i look like that.. i mean no offense but please.... eeeww..... i told you if only he's mr. saeed.. hahaha..

anyway..back to my contract... i know that their just hanging on me because of the project... not because im good.. aiiisshh.. because there's this one customer who told me that i'll be working with him till the end of the presentation of their case study.. omo.....

and there's a new filipino.. aww.. i dunno if he's with us or if he's with the management... gotta be careful...

i sooo fucking hate this old man... abu khaled... arrgghh....

waaaaaaaahhh.........

my supposed to be employer... already gave up on me..he told me that he cannot help me anymore, because he already have complete line up for his employees.. so SAD.. so this means i have to do best and experience the fucking life at AL ASEEL .. until they got tired and fire me.. omg!!!! ottoke???

so this means there will be so many salary deduction.. huhuhuhu.. how??? nande????

im sorry JACQ!!
this is the decision that you should be facing...
i can't back down now...

huhuhuhuhu..........

omoooo...

i dont wanna be so bitter or so negative for the whole month so im sharing this cute IU giffy....
mawningness...

anyways.. waahhh mi chyuh suh?  yeah i have the confidence to call my supposed to be employer yesterday and guess what he called back.. and he said that i dont sound like im okay .. huhu i wish he could help me although i know its really late..please just help me out from this fucked up messed worked life at AL ASEEL..
i so not making any progress.. i cant' work right.. i always feel so nervous.. sorry LORD....

and so i have been taking care the register and guess what.. im over of 10 dirhams and one slip is missing.. omo.. huhuhu.. of course i was being reported again.. waaaaaaaaahhh..

i'm a FAILURE....


and there's a car following me until madinat.. he even waved .. hahahahhaa.. as if i will fall.. if he's mr saeed .. hehehe.. why not..??? aisshhh..
hattte me...
LORD sorry.. mianhe.. gomenasai!!

omo..

omg, i dunno what to do.. if only there's someone who will take me.. aiisshhh...  carol keeps on reminding me to talk to my boss about my national id here.. but what's on my mind is for me to change work...

what's keeping me pre-occupied for days now is the situation i am with...

if i stay in that damn fucking company....

a. i'll be a total slave
b. i might get heart attack for their shouting
c. i might cause destruction to their property
d. i wont get a whole salary..i'll have deduction monthly
e. it was going to be so tiring
f. i might got insane

and if i go, i will disappoint my family....
i dunno... should i just sacrifice it all..

LORD.. what should i do...??

anyeong!

woah, the customer last night was a big time, he was asking to make an ID, and it took so many hours for him to wait.. and guess what he got bored.. the pc that i was typing on.. he put his palm.. *epal lang* and then started to talk to us, he said that he's been awake 24 hours and sometimes he only get 4-5hrs of sleep a day... and he has a house behind marina mall... oh well..he is driving a luxury car, and he has a well built body, he also said that he's a sporty person, he enjoyed taekwondo and gymnast... wooow... but he seems a bit lacking on the height department. he also got the usual arabic man who has a nice eyes and pointed nose.  He even went inside the counter checking on the ID, he even told me that i was in love daw, because he saw my giidyness.. aisshh if only he knew... and i told himno and i wish i was sir.. maybe he meant that i should have replied back that.. yeah im in love with you.. *kyaa*  pideeeee... kiberness.. ang arte.. and he replied that he was just joking.. *omo.. dont kid around...*

aiisshh how will my lovelife going start.. if i cant read between the lines.... or maybe i was just dreaming of a person like him.. *asaness* naman ako.... haaayy.... he smells good.. and kidded around again.. that if we pass by him... we have to pay for him..aiissshh.. koya... wag ganun... pero wala rin after the ID was made.. he just go... he didnt even say goodbye to us.. and i am ashamed to bid goodbye too.. because he might think that i was flirting with him... wisshh that i should have done ... heehee *desperate move ba itey*  even if i wanted to have his number,, i dont think i have the guts to call him.... aiisshh

and there this one customer... who was asking me to make a research project which i wasnt good noh... naku si belen nga lang ang ng work harder for our thesis back then.. now he was asking me to do it on my own... until the presentation and final reports are done.. omo.. *sakit sa bangs ni koya*... ako na lang kaya ang magaral. baka sakali... makakuha ako ng work na maayos.  aiiissssh....

my heart was always jumping whenever i hear our boss voices.. they keep on shouting and they let us feel like incapable.. aaiiisshh.. ottoke???? i hate hate hate this...