Can't help not to be sad, since we're experiencing some trials along the way and it really aches me seeing and passing along the path that god has given us.   so hate myself so much right now, i wasn't any of help on my mom's feelings, i can't say things what i wanted to say, i'm still the same stuck up on my way of life, i can't talk to anybody how i truly feel, argh.. i was always have the  feeling guilt whenever i checked fb, this is the most simplest and worrisome christmas ever for me. i just hate me... dapat bang maging masaya talaga pag pasko? (should we be really happy when christmas day arrive?)  Sorry for being such an emo today, it just that u really hate me..........................

happy birthday jesus, thank you for coming into the world. thank you for all the blessings and challenges, lord i know that it is me who has been bad and done nothing for my mom, she doesn't deserved any of this suffering, please Lord help us to overcome this predicament, im begging you please, please take away the pains she's undertaking, it really ache my hearts to see her like that.  I know you've given this to us because you believe that we're strong enough to make this through but please we're asking for your guidance and help, thank you so much.