oMfg! i really thought i lost you!!*head shakes* though im just a lil upbeat in blogging i missed so many thoughts already.. darn i should have saved the info in my email!! anyways i will from now on!!!m jsut glad that m back!!
hmm anyways the problem with my tita and us were kinda okay though it wasn't really!! sigh i wish it will really!!!
yay!! do you know that its gonna be goong fever na cause tomorrow was the night ive been waiting for cause its the premirre of the GOOnG!!

hee hee... that's for now!! talk to yah soon!!

ciaO!!

whew.. i have been this cheerful for the past weeks because of the k-series and the korean actor that ive been admiring...neweiz the blog wasn't a feel good one cause its been a week since i've last chatted with my brother who's working abroad... and i really don't expect that this argument will happen between our chat!!!
okay here's what the chat run's in... first of course the hi and hello.. and what's up ... blah blah blah.... when i suddenly told him of the plans my mom and i was thinking for next year.. we are discussing to put up an internet cafe in our place since my mom had resigned effective on the 1st of january 2007 from her job. and the retirement pay that she will get is the one will gonna use for the said business. and it will be in our own place but my brother protested and said things like "oh..you shouldn't do that cause it will just get our house messy and yucky... so the protest goes on...and i just say okay just to finish the argument and changed the topic when he suddenly said that can i do a favor for him.. actually it was some kind of a proposal for me.. and i asked him what is it all about.. and he was hesitant at first ans told me that he was shy but he said it is for like the best or i wouldn't have to worry or whatsoever but i kept on asking him on what is it that he's asking for..and i wasn't prepared that what he was asking was like a bomb.. actually i forgot the whole and exact words that we exchange between cause when what he's asking for sink in i got teary eyed..
neweiz this is the best i can remember:
my brother: i have a favor to ask for..
me: what is it
my brother: hmm, m kind of shy but i guess its for a good and you've got nothing to lose
me: okay what is it??
my brother: im really shy
me: a lil pissed
me: come on, tell me??
my brother: okay
me: so...
my brother: hmm if i got back home can you please moved out??
me:(stunned for a moment)
me: ahh.. sure.. that's what i wanted to do
to get out thins fuckin' house.. (in a ballistic now,with tears rolling down on my cheeks)
(typing bad words)
okay i will very soon but if ive got enough money i will get my mom and stay with me so dad will stay with you!!
MB: can mom stay with me until my wedding..
me: that is if i don't still have enough money but if i do get lucky and have some money before your wedding i will get her!!

that's prolly the exchanging lines we had though i edited it cause i can't remember the other but we're fighting whose side mom will stay.. hm.. i wasn't really angry cause he was kicking me out of our house its because he sees me as a pain in his ass.. i'm not really sure what was his reasons for asking me to move out but all i can say is that we really ain't close and always have a lil fights.. okay i know i also have faults why we fights but arrgghh.. i don't intend to stay in our house for the rest of my lives.. i want to explore the world and sees things that i haven't seen before gawwdd.. i have a dream too... sigh!!!

for now i don't have plans to talk to him cause i still feel the rage i have for him.. i still can't think that he would have blurted it out things like that!!
anyways thats for now!!

aha.. i forgot the title says a cigar and a beer cause after a few hours of our net fight i cry together with these two things!! i don't have much friends plus im not the type of person who confide with friends!! i don't know why but i always like to be a confidante!!
and its one way of making me feel a lil okay i guess..

gaawwwddd.. this k-series was so cool that i didnt got to sleep almost a day just to watch it.. it really got me hooked up.. okay.. m just exaggerating in the not sleeping for almost a day part.. hee hee.... but really this is one of my top faves.. and the good news is, this will gonna have a tagalized version to be shown at abs cbn on december though m a viewer of their rival station i will still wait and watch out for this!!! i mean this k-series made me realized that being famous and rich ain't much that cool.... darN i heart prince yUL... he's so cute..... i mean he's one of the reason why i got hooked on this series!!and i also like the princess.. she's really pretty.....

and ive heard that they are filming the second part.. but the original cast doesnt' retain hmm.. that's sad!!! but hope still good as the first part!!! anyways gotta go..

cheers,
jacq

hey its been recently that my fave band which is the moffatts are seen playing on stage though dave isnt there with them.. only bob, clint and scott!!! my friend jamie had posted pics from her multiply and am so happy to see the smiles on their faces... to bad i didnt' watched them performed cause it was all sudden nobody knows the schedule.. sayang talaga meron pa nmn kaming cctv sa cable.. haaay.. but jamie still manage to produce a video though ala xang audio..!! but still okay kesa naman sa wala!!!

something happens in the family it concerns ours and the widow of our uncle... my dad and my late uncle was brother's! this may not be clear if i'll not having a flash back...and this thing isn't really new cause the problem was there long time ago and the issues aren't being discussed by the family!
let's go down memory lane first...my father was the middle child and my tito rick is the eldest and ta loy is the youngest. my dad was working overseas before and stop working for 10 years na ata.. and they planned to rebuild our house back in the early 90's. actually it was my grandfather who owns the land of my family and tito ricks' .. so they separate it into two since my tita loy is still single she's living with us same as my grandparents. let's say my father got a problem with gambling before and untill now... the money both my mom and he had saved for rebuilding our house got lost. arrgh enough on my father's past cause it isn't the important issue here...my mom was in debt and our electricity was cut out and i remember i used to watch tv in our tita linda's and even used their phone whenever theirs an emergency.. no cellphone yet i think... but this wasn't long cause tita linda said that we should get our own line of electricity.. i didn't know yet what this talk is all about but my dad grumbles that "how could she did it to us plus the fact that the parents of her husband was living with us... can't she wait for us to have enough money to get our own...i don't know what happen then but we did get our own not for long...
even before my dad and my tita linda aren't really close they we're just cool.. and even to us me, my mom, and brother wasn't really close to her and children!! they most likely at the province if it's holiday and summer vacation so we grew up knows nothing about much each other! and my dad has one sister and we call her ta loy and i don't think she has a plan to get married pa cause she's already in her late 40's but who knows, right???i wish she still could find a good husband to be but if she aint' its cool...
in the middle of 90's my "nanay" grandmother got tired on living caused of her illness... its our genes to have diabetic....and she passed away.. since our house isn't rebuild yet we had funeral at the barangay and it's fine.. got to see some distant and not so distant relatives...

i don't know what stories to squeeze in pa cause its' so many and don't know where to put... okay.. since we started not being close to tita linda and her family... actually before i do respect her much and her siblings cause all of them are in good status they're not that rich but can afford things to buy for their family plus they we're really have family closed ties since every year they're having reunion.. hmm do i sounds envious.. nah.. though i don't see my other relatives every year am okay with it!just as long we have contacts!
our life goes on smoothly though the financial problem was always still there and me and my brother had finished college and last october 10 2004 my grandfather passed away and my cousin named ivan had a daughter on that very same day but she did not marry the mom whose name is aira. coincidental as i thought....
They named the child as ALEXA, and since our law says the child can use the surname of his/her father as long as the father accept that the child was his! so on the 14th of november 2005 alexa was baptized here and bear the name of alexa vanna repe!and it was also our tito rick's last birthday celebration.. since then alex and her mom lived with us...... we're happy cause there' was an addition to our clan! baby alex was so cute and looks like an angel.. hee hee.. i think every child is an angel... the innocent looking and the smiles she brings was addictive..
it was on the first month of 2005 when tito rick passed away because of the same illness of our grandmother'.. he was burried in the province of his wife in bicol and we attended it.. i wasn't that approved that my tito to be burried there cause he's a manila boy and his parents are burried here but it was his wife's decision so we didnt' question it cause even before i think he's underdog on tita linda cause he also not have a job because of his diabetis... whenever his wife says we have to go there.. to stay at bicol, spend christmas and summer vacation... he didn't have a say just stay there beside her!! i don't know what really happens.. i was just saying my opinion here and was not saying that what was on my mind over this matter was right and true enough!and nobody mind about my opinion on his family... it was sad for us cause though we wanted to visit him during special occassion we can't cause its far away!
aira and ivan had tried living in to give alex a family but the relationship didnt work out and the two went abroad but not for long ivan goes back home cause he can't and aira only had 6months contract... alex was either here in manila or her mom's province infanta, quezon.
this july of 2006 something bad happen to aira's family her mother passed away and aira don't have a job to give alex all her needs so she decided to give alex to tita linda so she can take care first her mom's funeral and burial.. after a month she went here in manila and stay with us... and the problems within aira and ivan comes again! you see this isn't much in details cause i wanted to jump at the present.... before alex sleep with my mom and dad when she was still a baby but when she reached her 1year old tita linda got here to sleep with here.... cause alex can sleep continously she won't disturv you in the middle of the night anymore... and every weekend she will brought alex to her brother and went home after 3 or 4days!! it's okay we didn't complain cause we don't have right...and she even brings alex in her activities and let other people take care of her than us!!this is my blog and this is what's on my mind i don't care if this is false for them but for me it isn't i will attest to all ive written here....
what pisses me off is what was tita linda's thinking about helping aira... she says that we just wanted aira to stay with us so alex was here too.. isn't that foolishness!! wherein we just wanted to help the person that her son abondoned and his son already has a new girlfriend whose due to deliver a child on december i think.... tita loy has planned to take aira to college so in time with this alex will goes to school to.... but tita linda doesn't sees this.. and another thing is that she's active in our church's activities so why she's thinking like that... i know aira wasn't like us to drag in this situation but we cannot just stay and stare because somehow we're also in it.... it's not just we want to elope ourselves here.. yes it's aira and ivan's problems but nobody cares what was aira's feelings... they were situations that i can't discuss further here cause it might take many pages.. like for example they can't take aira to their relatives in the province cause they don't know how they can introduce her to their relatives... but they were happy to tell everyone that alexa was her grand daughter!! and they don't talk to aira as in talked whenever she's around!! isn't it a shame!!a total baloney!!! she talks so much and she should be thankful cause aira doesn't talk back to her.... the thing is damN with her thoughts!!!"WE JUST WANTED TO HELP!!"
and my dad really wanted to confront her about this and talk things out but tita loy wanted to deal with her first cause daddy has a short tempered man!! a lil background about aira... yeah she's young so she has this traits that we don't like..i dnt wanna go on further but this pisses us off too.. i hope you know what im talking about but if you don't just asked me..
i dont' know what will happen next but this is the issue for now.. though i wasn't a good story teller .. m soory if i bore you to death... its okay to comment.. please do so... your opinions are needed!just focus on the last paragraphs...
ciao!! ttyl!!!
cheers,
jacq

hey... halloween is over and we just visited yesterday the grave of our grandparents... the people aren't that much cause some anticipated that it might rain that day so they headed a day or two... we didn't stay that long, an hour is what my dad said cause we can always pray for them anytime and anywhere...though i still wanted to stay longer i can't cause its very hot and we didn't bring some tent or something to cover us... some lame excuse huh?? :D i just prayed and give thanks to them for this year and hopefully for the coming years we will be bountiful enough... i was confiding in them the thoughts that i have right now cause for the past months i've been so lonely with my life.. i cannot say that i was really close to them but am proud to say that i have given the chance to take care of the people who brought out my dad in this world cause if they werent for them i wasn't be here... typing this blog... hee hee... am i pilisopo or what?? a lil devilish i think....
before we got to their grave many vendors and different stuff was their it was like a "fiesta" foods stall are varies from shawarma to delicasies... my eyes got swollen from eyeing different foods... it was really like a town fiesta... "eye humping" what my online friend used to call it.. hee hee..and i saw a grayeyard that was decorated with the christmas decor.. they even have a christmas tree on the rooftop and silver branches with silver balls... with the red candles and flower... hmm the deceased was a chinese and my mom knows one of the relative of the deceased.... every year when i passed that section they spend much for the beautification of theirs and i even saw that last year being feautured in the news.. hmm i hope we also have that money to spend with but i think prayers and your thoughts about your loved ones who passed away was more likeable by them cause beautiful and many flowers can be wilted in short span of time.. unlike the prayers and the memories of them in your heart cannot be taken away or washed away...i hope iam having sense here... until my next blog.....ciaO!

im so loving it now(quote).... that's what keeps on running on my head every now and then... im getting tired on stalking to someone who don't really mind me..... but ive been liking him for 8years call me insane/obsessed or whatever... but this is me... and i won't give up liking him.. actually i wasn't asking for him to like me like i like him that much just to know that he remember me is enough....hahaha.. m pathetic...

hey.. i thought i can't log in again cause ive tried days ago and it says it has a problem or something.. but anyways m happy that i can still maintain blogging here... haay... these past few days nothing quite unusual happens.. just heard my favorie track from the same same album on the radio and it makes my heart beats fast and sends shivering..i don't know basta i feel "kilig" whenever i heard moffatts/same same song on the radio.. then reminisce the ole good days of college life.. darn i miss school... hee hee!!!!
last saturday was my brother's birthday and we just chatted over the net since he's working abroad... we miss him... though he has to do it to prepare for his future.. i wish i can go abroad too and experience to live and worked their cause i wanna be independent... yeah in this time of my age.. still got nothing to prove and still depends on my parents.. haay what a lousy person am i....?? sigh.. am i vbeing nega.. again.. so till my next drop thoughts... muah!!!!

hello.. just finished watching the "my girl" korean series... OMG the lead guy character was really gorgeous... weee....
he was here a couple of months to promote the said k-series, and watched him guested in a noontime show here... and i was like "f*ck he's so gwapo!!!!!! *kilig* ever!!!!
the show was cool..i love the whole package..... the portrayal of the character's are good too... i have a good laugh while watching the series!!! haaay... korean roX!!! peace ouT!!

whew,, just got back from my favorite place "quiapo" ... i sooo love the place even before college years,, well uhmm... here i am again trying to reminisce the good ole days... lol!!! i just went their to pay our bill in electricity and my mom borrowewd my ten dollars.... arrghh.. don't have savings na for christmas.. yay!!! the place was always overcrowded and many stuffs are bargain... so now you know why i love the place..... tee hee!
m craving for the koreanovelas series that i can't resist buying whenever i go there... tsk tsk.. ya, i know its piracy but who couldn't resist if they sold it in a very cheap price... plus they are in good quality nmn...... m sorry i know its bad but i can't afford the original one and i think the market hasnt got those to be offered for the consumer....hee hee.. am i defending what i have done or just convincing myself that i did the right thing.... basta i cant,wont' and want to stop buying it!!! the hell with piracy.... hee hee... just as long i wouldn't steal something from the one who i knew the owner.... and besides its for personal use lang nman..... now there's 2 koreanovela's waiting for me... so until my next post!! ciaO!!!

Taken last sunday at the LRT pureza station... its my bestfriend louise first to ride in here.. cause she just got back for a month vacation so she was happy to take some memorabilia... hee hee.. do we look happy or what... ???
We're on our way to visit our barkada in antipolo who havent' seen for a lil while cause we used to hang out in their place in legarda before... we have such good memories and in their house plus we got close too to her parents and relatives during those times...haay... how time flies by she now had 2 children and her first child was my "inaanak"..... though when we got to their house she's not home.. we just saw her mom, husband and two lil kids.....
Just have some lil chat and take some pics then we went home... mami was happy to see us again and talk about things... we shared lunch and then chat again a lil then take some pics again... then the rain start to pour.. we stayed and wait for the rain to stop before we left.. its kinda of sad cause we did not see dyan.. our friend but we're happy na rin cause we got to see her mom and kids.. kahit na sandali lang kame ngkasama at ngkausap ulit!!! it was really fun to hnag out again to all the people you've missed and loved... ciao!! :)

The world was now in high tech have this very wonderful gadget that are very useful and some are affordable.... i wish i was this techno geniuses and can create my own special products!!! well am just an ordinary person with simple looks and simple living.. we're just an average people living in the beautiful island of the philippines..