yep i did get back to my old template cause when i browse my x blog skin.. i can't see my name.. i just saw the details of the designer.... i know it should really have her name but then in was placed in the profile section ...what if my friends or people who might stumble upon my journal would think that it was her's not mine. haa haa haa!!!!.....

been busy these past few days.. gomene for not updating.. i just wanna say that i still have "colds"....sob sob!!!

ooppss.. did i say my account in YT was permanently disabled... dang.. i have put most of my arashi vids there... just when i was having a good time uploading vids... then i will learn that it was taken down.. but i was worried cause mostly vids of arashi performances i put was all rejected through infringement chuvaness... "sigh"..

and about jihoon.. i dunno if his movie was done.. i hope to catch it in a theater but it was going to be way too impossible.... "sigh 2"

and YEH was having this collaboration with Mighty Mouth (MM).. ... hmm..will she get backto her singing career ..?? oh well wherever she's happy .. its cool with me...
anyways the song was entitled Saranghae(i Love You)

Konnichiwa minna!!..
rain is pouring heavily right now and i can feel the loneliness inside me... gotta change the skin of my blog.. i know nobody hit mine.. but still am here to update... looking back on my post still the same..sentiments i have a few years back.. yes..am still single and alone!!...
why did i choose this template simply because that is just how i feel though i wasnt really have the feel of the "emo-ness" that this represents but i do.. feel the "not good enough" emotion!!...
maybe that's why i am stucked in our good ole house!!.....
when will these wings of mine can be used... and live a life of my own.....

anyways..this is connected on the day of my "bewilderment" yep..i got mad and went wild that night... minutes before my birthday... never in my wildest dream i could see myself doing that to someone.. yup.. i came across to an argument with a "screaming faggot" i would say!..
okay this is not the first or the second time i got pissed by this person.... its the third time.. yep third time....
and it all started again with the worth of 6 pesos print!!...
and when he was about to log out.. he ask me if he'll gonna pay for the wrong print... i told him.. of course cause its not my problem...
he then told me that i know nothing and he even say it again... i was like....*boom* what did you say.... who.. the f**ckin' hell are you to tell me that i know nothing... where in fact... you should be the one reponsible in the set up/. of that printed documents... cause yeah.. you know all...you're good at everything..just because your' effing teacher.. gash... i can feel my whole body tremble that i had to let it all out the grudges... i have in me..... i feel like having all the hatered....in the world...... i just can't calm down .. it lasted for minutes...i was really in a ecstatic feeling, the annoyance i've got from him.... the problem with our shop concerning about the viruses that's been pestering our pc! of me having a slight fever the other night...... it all explode and because of him... i've acted crazy on the day of my birthday..which now i prefer to call " my cursed day".. he make that day disgusting and lonely!!.. that's why the whole day i can't even smile...and i even got mad with my mom..which is really bad... sigh!... if only i could turn back the time..i guess this the time i would come back for.... i will gain my composure.. tell him more things in a very calming way!...

and would you believe that he will even fight back to me..knowing that he's still in our house/ he's this stubborb enough to talk back and ... waaahhh... in that very moment i really wanted to punch him with my fist... waaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!........

though i wasnt good in explaining things.. i will forever cherish this incident in my life.. i'll try not to lose my composure again... in this kind of situatio.. i will try my best to act cooly as possible!!...

so now i believe in

here's the pics of yeh in her various new products endorsement..from zippel refrigerator to ray ban eye wear!!....
YEH rocks!!....


and i think this pics from her cy was her latest....

am i seeing the very mysterious ring again which she often uses lately!!....hmm...what's so special about it....was it just really an accessory.... ohh well cant wait for her announcement!!...if ever.....
i know i can be called a stalker but what can i do im a hyoonie fan so i wanted to know some of her stuff.... this is the "fangirling life"!!

anyhoo.. i feel relieved now..since i've been in a bad mood 2 nights ago.. well actually i've posted last night but due to a virus .. i didnt know my pc hang up and my supposed to be entry got lost too bad... i havent posted it.. i thought it this has something like recovery data.. or saving a draft!!...
anyhoo....the post is all about my raging action towards to one of our client.. ....
actually i was in rush typing my journal so i cant put the story yet but i surely post it later or maybe tomorrow or the nest day.. but surely will post it....

so until then!!..

jane'

owkie!!.....i now believe in the saying .. that a person who is reserve and quiet..when loses his/her temper can be so drastic!!... gomen didnt know what was the true saying goes like but i think it was something like this..cause last night minutes before my birthday... i did flared up..... i messed up... .. i cant believe i could have acted like that way last night!!.. i was really really pissed off.. of that screaming faggot who i've encountered!!.. i was in bewilderment and throwing things and even banging on things. seriously i wasnt the type of person who got mad easily.. actually it wasnt the first or second time i've got annoyed with that bastard.... i really feel the anger inside me that i let it out last night.... shit!!.... anyways .. it was all because of that 6 pesos print...... he told me that i know nothing.. i was like zomg!!!!.... who the f***in' hell are you to tell me that i know nothing!!...that's the greatest insult i have ever received in my 28 years of existence in the world...
even me was shocked the way i acted that night.. and im so soory for making my mom feel so nervous... i feel like i was a devil .. maybe because of the prior stress i've been experiencing lately!!... oh god... what have i done.. but i am not regretting the foul words i have given to him cause he deserve it and i think deserve some more.... what i am sorry now was i loss my temper and even made my mom worry!!

i thought i really lost this post... i was just stupid not to see this earlier..anyways since i did this the day after it happened io think this was full of my emotion better post it na lang.. hee hee..!!

arashi's 21st single to be released on the same date of my bday.. weeehh!!...

http://www.4shared.com/file/38255227/f1b%20a36f7/20080220_-_Step_and_Go_-_01_Step_a%20nd_Go.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/38255915/38c%20cebf9/20080220_-_Step_and_Go_-_02_Fuyu_w%20o_Dakishimete.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/38256658/3bf%208ba93/20080220_-_Step_and_Go_-_03_Step_a%20nd_Go__Original_Karaoke_.html

http://www.4shared.com/file/38257549/ef1%20e6278/20080220_-_Step_and_Go_-_04_Fuyu_w%20o_Dakishimete__Original_Karaoke_.html

hello minna!!!...
i attended our goongianz EB at TRINOMA... ehe.. its my first time in that mall... based on the pictures i've seen over the net and the comments i got from a friend they told me taht it is very beautiful.. but for me yah.. its okay but not that beautiful..as what 5've read..and seen.. hee hee.. maybe they just had a good camera....
we just had some good laughs and more laughs!!......
and of course a freebie from madam julz.... hee hee!!...
ill be posting our pics as soon as i've got a copy....
so till here..gonna watch the iswak 2~!! they kiss again!!..

ciao!!!

konbanwa minna!!...
well just jotting down some senseless post.. teehee...
hearts day again and got no one to share with.. but i have my friends though!!....

anyways here are some cute hearts i've been drooling..

weehh..sweets for the toothy!..

chocolates made from italy!!...


heart shaped jelly beans!


heart shaped gelatin!!


heart shaped elongating candy


cute heart sidings ... wonder what kind of dressing it is..???


wow..this is really cool... a heart shaped pizza...
im an addict pizza lover!!.....


coffee anyone..with heart shaped brownie on the side....



cute heart pillar...


clover leaf shaped into heart vine


heart tealights


heart shaped made of paper wax.....

cute cute cute.......


jane' minna!!..
kiotsuketene!!..

kyaaaa.............
the new arashi pv is out .... i've read this news yesterday but too lazy to download it.. so i just finished dling it and posted it in my YT.. please feel free to visit and comment...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWkfosunTXs


cedit to junmatsumoto@vox
especially the SC!

dang.. finally i can update it na... why did i wait for a year to revive it..why only now i did try to get access .. i really thought i can no longer get through it... hmmpfff..... that means im stupid enough not to know how to gain access of this..
while im' trying to regain it i've read what i've posted 2 years ago and damn... im such a klutz but i can be a good blogger sometimes though this pages was more on rambles and rave...
anyways im maintaining my watashiwa fujiwara tsubaki desu.
inochiwa tsuzuku!!..
what's on your mind??
so if you wanna know more of me for the past year of my absence here just go to the link i've posted above..and you might find some goodies i was drawn into...

okies..
here's my addictions so far..
JOO JI HOON
YOON EUN HYE
JUN MATSUMOTO
ARASHI
SHIROTA YUU
other k-celeb
taiwanese celeb
japanese celeb
and asian series!!
and still a MOFFATT fan but not that much anymore im not a stalker that much... about them

basta im really into asian stuffs... its so kawaii!!....

ja ne'!!!