Whoa... how many years have passed?im still the same rotten person. My beloved mother left me already and i have so many regrets that i havent did for her. Imma such a useless soul... maybe just maybe if you can let me be with mom. Empty life...

Its the feast of the Black Nazarene and today also is the day where mom was going to be admitted at UDMC, please i believe that you will never forsake us, that everything will be just fine in your name and presence. Thank you .....

Can't help not to be sad, since we're experiencing some trials along the way and it really aches me seeing and passing along the path that god has given us.   so hate myself so much right now, i wasn't any of help on my mom's feelings, i can't say things what i wanted to say, i'm still the same stuck up on my way of life, i can't talk to anybody how i truly feel, argh.. i was always have the  feeling guilt whenever i checked fb, this is the most simplest and worrisome christmas ever for me. i just hate me... dapat bang maging masaya talaga pag pasko? (should we be really happy when christmas day arrive?)  Sorry for being such an emo today, it just that u really hate me..........................

happy birthday jesus, thank you for coming into the world. thank you for all the blessings and challenges, lord i know that it is me who has been bad and done nothing for my mom, she doesn't deserved any of this suffering, please Lord help us to overcome this predicament, im begging you please, please take away the pains she's undertaking, it really ache my hearts to see her like that.  I know you've given this to us because you believe that we're strong enough to make this through but please we're asking for your guidance and help, thank you so much.

omo,  its been months ive been on a hiatus.. what happen again to me.. anyways im glad i finally able to sign in again because i did forget my account here..so sorry..since this is my first ever online blog.. okay.. my LIFE is really a MESS still... why oh why.. i am really such a DORK.. sorry...

okay hasta lavista baby..

ciao...

anyeong..
jacq please wake up you've been on hiatus for months... you've told yourself many positive things and even bring yourself down.. now is not the time for thinking how to plan your life instead you should grabbed any opportunity that comes on your way, dont lose any of it.. you've wasted enough...
Sorry mom and dad for you have brought up a person like me in this world you dont deserve a daughter like me.. i've been an asshole, and even to my brother i've been like a cross that they should bear.. i know that they have given me many chances already and i blew it all up.. DAMN you JACQ!!!! when will you wake up.. you've missed the beauty of life.. shIt.. i hate myself so much... huhuhuhuhu!!!

DAMN YOU MUCH!!!! pretty please move on and do something for yourself.. MOM its not your fault its mehh.. im such a coward... and lazy person... waaaaaahhh..... i needed to express myself more.. i always bottled up my feelings maybe that's the reason why i am like this..i should release what i feel inside.. huhuhu.. i need a helping hand most especially an ear who will listen on my peers..someone who will cheer and says everything will be just fine. why am i so alonE!!!?????

anyeong..

since i am back in PH, of course for almost a decade now.. me and my mom didnt failed to do these christian practices during lenten season.....

wherein we visit churches.. and had a little prayer and commemorating the hardships that god had undergone in order to wash away the sins of the people. since we are only now three, me, mom and ta loi went together.

anyeong!

errrhh.. sleeping to the max, and eat..haay what a life.. boredom..

i know i've talked about ali.. im still scared. but he was asking for marriage?? i dunno know if he's serious or what..but i can feel his arrgghh.. i dunno.. we chatted and made things that i dunno.. arrgghhh...

should i just go with the flow..whats happening to me.. LORD...