ottoke???

anyeong~

i so hate what i feel, i thought things are falling into place once i've found a job, though they were warnings and signs that i shouldnt have to continue working here, but ottoke? im so ashamed for my brother and my sister in law, they've been spending so much money on me and i cant take it anymore... although they were not saying anything.. huhuhuhu.. who will save me from this messed up work life!

i really hate the company's management, you have so many boss, and damn the workloads.... im sorry LORD if i was being a crybaby.. but i think this is beyond my capacity sorry for saying that anything i can do ..but right now im on the verge of giving up... help me please to hang on ... at least until in my third month???? i dunno.. what should i do.. i sooooo fucking hate my situation right now..

alll i can say is that im really SORRY to LORD, my family,my mom, my kuya to carol and to myself for thinking and feeling this now.. HUHUHUHU.. i am such a worthhless person... GOMENASAI!!!!