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Konnichiwa minna!!..
rain is pouring heavily right now and i can feel the loneliness inside me... gotta change the skin of my blog.. i know nobody hit mine.. but still am here to update... looking back on my post still the same..sentiments i have a few years back.. yes..am still single and alone!!...
why did i choose this template simply because that is just how i feel though i wasnt really have the feel of the "emo-ness" that this represents but i do.. feel the "not good enough" emotion!!...
maybe that's why i am stucked in our good ole house!!.....
when will these wings of mine can be used... and live a life of my own.....

anyways..this is connected on the day of my "bewilderment" yep..i got mad and went wild that night... minutes before my birthday... never in my wildest dream i could see myself doing that to someone.. yup.. i came across to an argument with a "screaming faggot" i would say!..
okay this is not the first or the second time i got pissed by this person.... its the third time.. yep third time....
and it all started again with the worth of 6 pesos print!!...
and when he was about to log out.. he ask me if he'll gonna pay for the wrong print... i told him.. of course cause its not my problem...
he then told me that i know nothing and he even say it again... i was like....*boom* what did you say.... who.. the f**ckin' hell are you to tell me that i know nothing... where in fact... you should be the one reponsible in the set up/. of that printed documents... cause yeah.. you know all...you're good at everything..just because your' effing teacher.. gash... i can feel my whole body tremble that i had to let it all out the grudges... i have in me..... i feel like having all the hatered....in the world...... i just can't calm down .. it lasted for minutes...i was really in a ecstatic feeling, the annoyance i've got from him.... the problem with our shop concerning about the viruses that's been pestering our pc! of me having a slight fever the other night...... it all explode and because of him... i've acted crazy on the day of my birthday..which now i prefer to call " my cursed day".. he make that day disgusting and lonely!!.. that's why the whole day i can't even smile...and i even got mad with my mom..which is really bad... sigh!... if only i could turn back the time..i guess this the time i would come back for.... i will gain my composure.. tell him more things in a very calming way!...

and would you believe that he will even fight back to me..knowing that he's still in our house/ he's this stubborb enough to talk back and ... waaahhh... in that very moment i really wanted to punch him with my fist... waaaaaaaaaahhhh!!!........

though i wasnt good in explaining things.. i will forever cherish this incident in my life.. i'll try not to lose my composure again... in this kind of situatio.. i will try my best to act cooly as possible!!...

so now i believe in