kon!!

aww... how many days to go before its christmas?? wow the time flies so fast and the year end is already nearing! still my nothing changed..im still the old fat lady who has nothing on her pocket!! i want change please LORD make my 2012 a super better one!!

anyeong....

another year has come, its been two years since my daddy left this world behind.. this is the time of the year where all soul was being visited by their loved ones... and we came a day early... dadi.. bogoshipda!! we miss you and thanks for watching over us!!! we love you ....

hello... it's my kuya's bday and since i am back here in the ph, so we celebrated it with my mami and tita... tita cooked palabok..yummy!!  kuya... thanks for supporting me and deciding to give me another chance to find my life improvements... im really hoping that this time i will finally have a time to shine on my own..im really sick the way my life goes on! thanks for the understanding both to you and carol...

anyeong....

owww...omo.... top's bigbang and one of my fave korean actress yoon eun hye team up for a photoshoot on a W Magazine... the poses are quite sexy and steamy.... yeh once again shown her S line body....

wow...

anyeong!!

aiyyeeee... T.O.P as Knight-o!!! uhhmmmm.. i dunno.. he's a little bit shy showing his body so i really dont know if he will pull it off... but as a whole he's gorgeous!!

Absolute Boyfriend T.O.P

haller..


kyaaa.. i haven't been properly watching any We got maried couples, since 2009, i was just hook on the first season where khj and hwangbo was there and after that i wasnt a fan anymore although my friends are still into it.. actually last august i was watching eunjung couple and i would have to say it was pretty interesting too..and also got to watch a few epi of vitoria and nickhun... they were so many idol'swho has been part of the wgm and i dunno when will im gonna have a curiosity to watch them.. i hope that the online site who's sharing the subbed vids wont delete it when i finally have time and decided to watch them....

and now look at what couple we have.. its leader teuk-shhi of Super Junior.. he's one of my early fave member... so i guess i have to take a shot to watch their episode...they started airing their wgm last October 8, 2011

DIMPLE COUPLE

anyeong!!!!

weehhh say B to the I to the G!!.. BANG................

kudos with you guys' you're finally reaping the hard works... you're gonna be known world wide!! chukahae!!

they were nominated in "2011 MTV EMA" for the "Best World Wide Act Asia Pacific"....
and Ryan Seacrest did mention how talented they are in his blog!!..
here's the link for that article.. DAEBAK

anyeong!

another star RAIN, BI bid farewell to his fans and enter the mandatory Military Service for the South Korean Male citizen for 2 years...
His entrance  for the military was televised the same as Hyun Bin's case...
Anyway. oppa rain fighting!!

rain aja aja.. fighting!

kon'....

yatta.. *saeng il chukha hamnida alex-sshi,* chukahae

bebe, i hope you will stay beautiful and intelligent as you are.. and be obedient na ha..

we love you and wish all the best, you're lucky enough to have us..soon you will understand what we wanted you to become....

stay beautiful,brainy, and please dont be makulit at matigas ang ulo!!!!

saranghae!!!♥♥

anyeong!!

omo.. there's a bad news from Big Bang's leader... GD....and it goes like these...

[NEWS] Official YG Entertainment regarding G-Dragon’s marijuana case

"“We would like to sincerely offer our deepest apologies to all the fans and to everyone who appreciates Big Bang’s music.

G-Dragon underwent an investigation for smoking marijuana last July. Because G-Dragon had never smoked marijuana, we cooperated with the investigation confidently and proceeded as usual with scheduled events. However, according to the hair strand test, G-Dragon tested positive for miniscule amounts of marijuana, which shocked us.

While we were contemplating what the reason could be, we thought of the event that occurred in May during their Japan tour. There was a drinking event to celebrate a successful concert with various Japanese associates who visited us at the concert location. When G-Dragon went to use the restroom, a young person who seemed to be a Japanese fan recognized G-Dragon and offered him a cigarette as he greeted him. Out of courtesy, G-Dragon took two or three puffs, but upon feeling that it was different from normal cigarettes, he flushed it down the toilet right away.

We thought it to be a trivial event, and soon we were unable to remember that it ever happened. However, when we began to ponder over the reason for this positive test, that night’s event returned as the likely cause. We contacted the prosecution right away and related the event exactly as it happened.

As celebrities who have received a lot of interest from the public, and as a company who is supposed to thoroughly manage them, we sincerely regret the emergence of this situation, and have been self-reflecting on our carelessness. We deeply bow our heads as we apologize for causing you to worry once again, and we will try our best to make sure this type of event does not occur again.”

Source: chosun allkpop

and many opinions had been posted online..hater's and supporters are all in the spotlight!..

and now its time for my view... i may not be considered an official vip because i didnt join their fanclubs and i may have a little merchandise nor even saw them perform live... but what makes me a bb fan is because of their music and talents, i really look up to their skills... and they seem so happy while making music for their fans.. i really don't know them much..but i claimed myself to be a true fan of them.. i would just like to say that my support still goes for them because i know they are still human who can commit mistake and they deserve forgiveness.. omo... BB fighting first it was dae dae's misfortune and now it was leader's GD!!

i just hope that GD can learned and make everything right from it.. because he still owe to the public the recognition he had right now..yess.. indeed i believe in his capability that he worked so hard to establish himself and he have some flaws so GD'ahhh.... be strong we still believe and support the Big Bang! it was just another chapter of your life where you can look back in the future and you can used it to write another song .....

i may not be in the position to state these views because i myself was still reflecting how my life has been so pardon me,reader who will stumble this post....

and of course.. there's always a                        
after the rain

ja

anyeong!

whoa.. the time flies by so fast ne'.....
i've been back here at the PH, for a month and waaahhh.. what  have i've done.. i think i gain weight again... what a loser..... because i aint doing anything again just right here in front of my crappy pc.. *sigh*.. sorry again and again!!.

yay.. foods foods... i cant seem to control.....

i wish things will go straight for this month and thank you for the blessings!!


ja'...

haller...

Happy Bday bebe emty

H

Hal its our dog’s 6^th bday, sorry I swear last year that im gonna buy you a decent birthday cake but I fail again,wishing you good health and please don’t be choosy over your foods… keep barking and wag makulit ha…. Hehehe!!

Lo

ohayo........

i feel sad again.. i was browsing my FB and saw my HS ate's and co YMC.... they all look so happy... and i was here... just waiting for the day to passed by.. i feel so worthless again..... im really in a bad state of mood after seeing all their smiles.. yes.. i envy them.... but im really happy for them.... i know its all my fault why im like these why i haven't gone to nowhere..i was living my life wastefully.. im so sorry LORD.. i hope i wasn't late to make changes..please give me strength to start over again.. 


here's the lyrics from tupac's song....


*♫i see no changes wake up in the morning and I ask myself is life worth living,should i blast myself??♪ yessss.. it was so related to my feelings right at this moment.....  why my life was like this, why i chose to be like this.. it was all my fault... shiitttttt.. i sucks big time!!


♫i'd like to go back when we played as kids but things changed, and that's the way it is.....♫♪

why did i chose these lonely and wrong path.. i want to become *someone*  i hate myself...

why didn't i assess myself, why i depended on my family so much, why i was like these.. it was now killing me i haven't thought of myself long before.... IM SORRY LORD!!! if this child was such a waste......




oyasumi >__<

papa top smexy eyes

anyeong!

went to BDO  to deposit on julz account because they were in KOREA to have some flailing and travelling of course... sigh i wish i can travel too someday.... i asked her a favor to buy me a BIGBANG Cd and SUJU's newest album.. mr.simple.... haaaayyyy.. 

went to sm sta.mesa and.. aww.. it has a new look and i have to ask for the sales lady for the direction.. it looks classy and nice..  actually the reason why i went there because i want my AED to exchange in our philippine money and sad to say they that AED was not on their list.. so i have to go to Robinson....

of course i have to window shop first.. i saw BB cream .. and the saleslady said that the raw materials is from italy so she tried it on my hands.. it was okay but i have the feeling of not smooth.. you know it was *malagkit* you feel like greasy.. so i told her that i'll think about it .. then at watson.. i also saw 3 bb cream... first is the magic bb cream.. whoaa .. the price was 650 or 700... dang. its expensive..and i saw another one.. it has this jasmine water..bb cream..and it cost like 300.. hmmm.. i think i like it.. but i have to think again.. *siggh*  if only we have much money ne'.... 

then after lunch we're off to Robinson together with mom and alexa... it was easy to have your money exchange because you dont have to fill up anything and the rate is just pretty the same as others...so i had 6k and gave it to mom...

alex ate at jollibee while i just roam around the mall... since i was a poor lady.. i cant pick what to buy... *sigh*

we buy these yummy floss.. at bread talk... although expensive but it was really delicious...

then went to kalentong because mom has an order ...for her empanada.. 

and kyaaaa..... i saw minute burger..omo.. i miss that taste... so of course i bought.. but sad to say they don't have coleslaw anymore.. huhuhuhu.. i think the patty still taste good... i miss the good ole days because of the burger.. i remember 15yrs ago, me, my kuya and dad... always bought Minute Burger for our snack.. and we love their coleslow.... if only we can turn back time..

i dunno until when that money of mine will last.....

so that's pretty it.. 

kon.. *__*

this post is especially dedicated to my favorite jpop band.. ARASHI!!!! they are celebrating their 12th year... omedetou............

applause applause....

since i am back home and i know that my target year to see my fave band is on the 2014...... so i dunno if i can keep it up... *sigh* i just wanna wish them safety and good health... cause i know their success wont be a problem because they have shown the world how good they are...!!! ARASHI SAIKOU!!!

♪♫thank you for always making me happy through your song♫ and although im not updated on your current works, like dramas, shows.. i will find time someday to watch it all...  ♥♥

wanna let the fandom know that i am a proud ARASHI fan through this post!! ♥♥

kon.. ^__^

i was busy the whole morning because i was really seriously trying to solve problems about my pc... and yess.. i was kinda able to make it operate although it keeps on disconnecting on the internet... and discovered 21 virus.. and the sad thing is it cant be removed nor repair.. all i can do is put it in quarantine.. that's why i guess sometimes there's changes in the pc.. because the virus keeps on pestering my pc... aiissshh.... and i browse the pc express shop.. and note down the prices and think if i will gonna change my processor into dual core.. i saw a 2,500 pesos only and i dunno if its compatible to my other pc components, and a 2tb memory that only cost 1,500 and if i will change my video card as well i saw around 2500 also.. so to sum it up.. i needed 7k... haaayyy... but it will help my pc speed up and works better of course!!

and i also learned that firefox 6 isnt compatible with orbit downloader.. and i cannot let my net life and fandom life live without orbit dl... hehehehee!!

hmm, i was also thinking if maybe there's a problem with my ip address... i am thinking if i will renew it.. because i was asking google how to... but afraid that it may just make it more difficult for me to connect on the net or worse i cannot connect anymore..

kyaaa.. i have new emoticons on plurk hehehe.. so kawaii......

night, i have to marathon at least 2 episode of scent of a woman!!

anyeong!!

kyaaa.. this pc still alive and kicking..... i really thought i wouldnt have a net life....
although i wasnt much active in fandom anymore.. you know.. because i have to re-arrange my life...
haaisshh.. im still sad thinking back what happens for the past 2 months..

dang, i just hope that they will not do that anymore to the others... what if that person needed that job badly... tsk tsk...

haaayy, i feel like i've been wasting my time... it is only right now how i did realized how wasteful my life has been for many years.. i have so many ifs inside my mind... haayy.. but lord please don't prolong my feelings.. i know i should also be responsible for the way my life was going on right now..but i still needs your guidance and care.. so please let my life be on track again!!

again the gratitude i have for kuya and kha is still overflowing.. i just hope that they will not stop supporting me and our family as well.. i wishes them more blessing and of course a baby....

and for my mom.. im sorry i wasnt able to fulfill what i should be doing now.. haaiisshh.. but need not to worry.. we still have time..just hold on!!

and for my FANDOM... aiiisshh..im really really broke but im still a FAN!!! but i cant right now..... im still having problems.. but these fandom was as awesome as ever...arashi, bigbang, 2ne1, shinee, dbsk, super junior... korean drams..running man...you helped me overcome things.

kon ^~^

and my pc now was been brutally and savagely mal-treated! the HD was been disconnected as well as the video card.. and oh also the 1tb memory was also at the back of my pc stall.. tsk tsk..... and i clean it the other day and hoping that i can still operate it.. dang my precious HD cannot be read.. waahh my files are in there.. but the nice thing is that i can still open it although they are so many problems... the sounds arent normal.. it sometimes have and sometimes it goes off.. and there is a virus.. hhuhuhu..where did it came from.... and that virus was crushing the installed program, like the internet connection can't get through, i was just lucky today to have a connection, the downloading program, i cant use.. phew.. my pc are really in critical condition.. it needed replacement.. sigh....

phew, anyeong!

cutieheechulie

me here na sa pinas, home sweet home!!!
now, the hurt is gradually healing, i have to forgot all the bad things happen ne'.. i need to be strong.. although i feel a lil humiliated,, aiissshhh...



as long as my family is here with me i shouldn't have to be afraid and back down... i know lord you have a bigger plans for me.. thanks at least nothing much worse happen to me besides the emotional pain.. thanks lord and praise be to GOD!!

im happy to be with mom again!!!

and i just wanna say also a happy birthday mama mary and happy anniversary to kuya mike and carol, sayangness i wasnt able to be there to celebrate it together.. 

feel so full, ate a lot of foods today, ate sopas, grilled pork, dilis.. then at dinner we had 18" yellow cab new yorker pizza.... and tsaraaaann a neighbor also buy us wendys.. yummyness..waaahhh foods i cant take it anymore.. .. so saraaaaapp ng foods here sa pinas!!!

chalja!!!

greeeaatt.. im now illegally staying here.... and i might fly to my country today.. what an experienced!

GOD BLESS the Ciarla bosses!!

anyeong

i was ready to post a giffy but then..waahh my files here in my kuya's lappy are missing maybe he erase it na..huhuhuhu.. i still havent save it yet eh..aissshhh... kainis...

did hear mass yesterday.. then laundry..what a day to spend my day off.... and then went to alwahda mall with kha.. sheeesshh.. i check out misha store.. its a korean make store pala.. then i saw bb cream..omo..its so expensive..i though that it will just gonna range from 50 to 100 aed..but it was 149... waahh but its really nice... but im still thinking...i dont have much money....

then todays work is so tiring because of the damn folios.... it was so many.. arrggh my head hurts so much... i just did it all day.. anyways thanks to jo cause she was helping me although i did redo her job..just to be sure... haaaiissh..

and then heard that rhea..  was out of the picture, she was dropped by the company because of some issues..

ciao..

anyeong!

whoaahh, i was a bit surprised about this news because that this means they'll be no more SS4 next year?, anyways.. chulie fighting!!

posed together with suju co-member siwon!!


anyeong HEECHUL!!

its my second day off... and still i was just here sa house..nowhere to go... because the salary i've got its not enough for somewhere to go and for shopping of course.. haaiissshh.. i thought i can have a netbook for the month of september as a gift for my first paycheck..but what to do i have to pay my bedspace rent and plus i still have to spend for my fare and what it sucks is that .... my visa still unclear..i dunno if it was being processed or what or it was just there at the desk,... sigh,, 


aissshh..anyways..im loving the heartstring series..giving me the *kilig* although the plot is just the same as the other korean series about a guy who is so cold..and a girl whose a carefree and spirited although she has also a problem at house..you know a typical teenager who have some difficulty.. i really like park shin hye..and of course young hwa seems like having some appeal to me now.because i like his voice just like hongki's.. im in epi 3 now..and later i will watch the rest of the epi.. at least it was already finish airing and done subbing...

i wonder where was rhea now and what' did the ciarla maangement told her.. haaayy i am really worried for my visa.. lord please...

yeaahha.. i did some giffy for my pics yesterday.. call me camwhore.. hehheeeee... and see the giffy that i have now on my sidebar.. well got nothing much to do...hehehe

a news about the Kokuritsu concert.. being change because of the typhoon in Japan.. http://aishitsuzukeru.livejournal.com/183048.html

wish someday i can watch the con.. hehehe..have to save.... i have so many dreams to pursue...


and there's also bad news about the suju... uhmm heechul decided to enlist in military and siwon was gonna be busy on his drama..so for the coming performance of the sj looks like there just gonna be 8 members....

http://sup3rjunior.com/2011/08/22/110822-super-junior%E2%80%99s-heechul-to-enlist-in-the-army-on-september-1st/

happy happy birthday JUN MATSUMOTO!! the reason why i've come to know arashi was because of jun!!  looking young ka bebe.... maybe you're just to happy about your band.. me too im so ureshi for knowing arashi, you've given me joy and strenght.. you guys are awesome and someday i hope to see you perform on stage.. my dream.. is KUKORITSU 2014.. hhehe by then 15 years na ang ARASHI!!

eid mubarak.. finally, ramadan is finished back to their normal stuff na ang mga tao dito sa ME!!.. and still im worried about my visa.. 6days to go still not clear what will i do.. lord please let it be done na.. aiiissshh..

got my first paycheck yesterday.yay.. hmm.. i have to pay for the bedspace rent .. so i can now only have 200 for this coming month.. waaahh how can i budget it.. haaayy...

justtttt..

Until when am I here, do I qualify to be in this position,, who will gonna answer me.. huhuhu… anyways drama lang.. wheew…

Wherever they will put me … I can do it.. with god on my side..he’s the one teaching me… the capability and the knowledge I have comes with him… waahh.. I start to question myself now, it sounds like I depend on GOD so much lately..but naahh.. I still do my part.. its just that everything that I do is for him.

Im just grateful that coming over here, open’s up my eyes to be closer with GOD again.. he shielded me from depression.. and save me from all the evil deeds…

Praise be to GOD!

this post is kinda long overdue.. you know that i dont have a pc of my own for 2 months so i just sneak out on my kuya's pc.

danggg.. and my plurk status went downnnnnnnnnnn.....  i've lost the nirvana previlege there. huhuhu...

talk to mr.antar yesterday about the my visa .. i think it was slowly being processed.. although i know that it will not get on time before my extension visa expire.. aissh the misfortunate situation of my employment visa..so i have to exit and go to KISH..aisshhh.....

rhea..already exited.but i dunno if they were fixing her visa but it seems that they already are.. anyways/... i cant do anything.. they are just being biased.... phew...but promise.. i like rhea.. better that the one who you shouldnt name with...

i was really pissed on her yesterday.. she was like almighty and whatsoever.. my gossshh.. she thinks im dumb, ignorant..she's been kinda bullying me... haaiissshh....

nyways.... life goes on..just be strong... aja!! just show them how capable and good you are!! gambatte!!

konnichiwa....

since yesterday i was feeling down ne'.. i dunno im not really happy right now...yes i do have a job but.. i still havent got my visa and it will gonna expire on the first week of the month..
why do i feel like im dumb... because someone arounds me thinks that im dumb.. shooott... to hell with it..aisshhhh....

i've talked to mr. antar about the visa and he told me that he will call me tonight for the confirmation..oh great.. and another thing is my acommodation... so i will not have it... since he told me that the'll be paying me for the days that i worked but i dont get it..even if i dont work i can still my rent..so what's his point anyways.. will he reimburse the money that i will pay... so confusing... haaaiisshh..

haller....

yesterday we attended mass.. and the gospel was kind of self reflecting.. fr. troy asks as *what is the role of GOD in your life???*  of course i succumb into thinking... he was the center of my life.. although i do admit that i was taken him for granted.. but now.. he was in my heart everyday!!  i have seen his miracles.... his love for me and my family...


monday work is fine..