haller...

Happy Bday bebe emty

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Hal its our dog’s 6^th bday, sorry I swear last year that im gonna buy you a decent birthday cake but I fail again,wishing you good health and please don’t be choosy over your foods… keep barking and wag makulit ha…. Hehehe!!

Lo

ohayo........

i feel sad again.. i was browsing my FB and saw my HS ate's and co YMC.... they all look so happy... and i was here... just waiting for the day to passed by.. i feel so worthless again..... im really in a bad state of mood after seeing all their smiles.. yes.. i envy them.... but im really happy for them.... i know its all my fault why im like these why i haven't gone to nowhere..i was living my life wastefully.. im so sorry LORD.. i hope i wasn't late to make changes..please give me strength to start over again.. 


here's the lyrics from tupac's song....


*♫i see no changes wake up in the morning and I ask myself is life worth living,should i blast myself??♪ yessss.. it was so related to my feelings right at this moment.....  why my life was like this, why i chose to be like this.. it was all my fault... shiitttttt.. i sucks big time!!


♫i'd like to go back when we played as kids but things changed, and that's the way it is.....♫♪

why did i chose these lonely and wrong path.. i want to become *someone*  i hate myself...

why didn't i assess myself, why i depended on my family so much, why i was like these.. it was now killing me i haven't thought of myself long before.... IM SORRY LORD!!! if this child was such a waste......




oyasumi >__<

papa top smexy eyes

anyeong!

went to BDO  to deposit on julz account because they were in KOREA to have some flailing and travelling of course... sigh i wish i can travel too someday.... i asked her a favor to buy me a BIGBANG Cd and SUJU's newest album.. mr.simple.... haaaayyyy.. 

went to sm sta.mesa and.. aww.. it has a new look and i have to ask for the sales lady for the direction.. it looks classy and nice..  actually the reason why i went there because i want my AED to exchange in our philippine money and sad to say they that AED was not on their list.. so i have to go to Robinson....

of course i have to window shop first.. i saw BB cream .. and the saleslady said that the raw materials is from italy so she tried it on my hands.. it was okay but i have the feeling of not smooth.. you know it was *malagkit* you feel like greasy.. so i told her that i'll think about it .. then at watson.. i also saw 3 bb cream... first is the magic bb cream.. whoaa .. the price was 650 or 700... dang. its expensive..and i saw another one.. it has this jasmine water..bb cream..and it cost like 300.. hmmm.. i think i like it.. but i have to think again.. *siggh*  if only we have much money ne'.... 

then after lunch we're off to Robinson together with mom and alexa... it was easy to have your money exchange because you dont have to fill up anything and the rate is just pretty the same as others...so i had 6k and gave it to mom...

alex ate at jollibee while i just roam around the mall... since i was a poor lady.. i cant pick what to buy... *sigh*

we buy these yummy floss.. at bread talk... although expensive but it was really delicious...

then went to kalentong because mom has an order ...for her empanada.. 

and kyaaaa..... i saw minute burger..omo.. i miss that taste... so of course i bought.. but sad to say they don't have coleslaw anymore.. huhuhuhu.. i think the patty still taste good... i miss the good ole days because of the burger.. i remember 15yrs ago, me, my kuya and dad... always bought Minute Burger for our snack.. and we love their coleslow.... if only we can turn back time..

i dunno until when that money of mine will last.....

so that's pretty it.. 

kon.. *__*

this post is especially dedicated to my favorite jpop band.. ARASHI!!!! they are celebrating their 12th year... omedetou............

applause applause....

since i am back home and i know that my target year to see my fave band is on the 2014...... so i dunno if i can keep it up... *sigh* i just wanna wish them safety and good health... cause i know their success wont be a problem because they have shown the world how good they are...!!! ARASHI SAIKOU!!!

♪♫thank you for always making me happy through your song♫ and although im not updated on your current works, like dramas, shows.. i will find time someday to watch it all...  ♥♥

wanna let the fandom know that i am a proud ARASHI fan through this post!! ♥♥

kon.. ^__^

i was busy the whole morning because i was really seriously trying to solve problems about my pc... and yess.. i was kinda able to make it operate although it keeps on disconnecting on the internet... and discovered 21 virus.. and the sad thing is it cant be removed nor repair.. all i can do is put it in quarantine.. that's why i guess sometimes there's changes in the pc.. because the virus keeps on pestering my pc... aiissshh.... and i browse the pc express shop.. and note down the prices and think if i will gonna change my processor into dual core.. i saw a 2,500 pesos only and i dunno if its compatible to my other pc components, and a 2tb memory that only cost 1,500 and if i will change my video card as well i saw around 2500 also.. so to sum it up.. i needed 7k... haaayyy... but it will help my pc speed up and works better of course!!

and i also learned that firefox 6 isnt compatible with orbit downloader.. and i cannot let my net life and fandom life live without orbit dl... hehehehee!!

hmm, i was also thinking if maybe there's a problem with my ip address... i am thinking if i will renew it.. because i was asking google how to... but afraid that it may just make it more difficult for me to connect on the net or worse i cannot connect anymore..

kyaaa.. i have new emoticons on plurk hehehe.. so kawaii......

night, i have to marathon at least 2 episode of scent of a woman!!

anyeong!!

kyaaa.. this pc still alive and kicking..... i really thought i wouldnt have a net life....
although i wasnt much active in fandom anymore.. you know.. because i have to re-arrange my life...
haaisshh.. im still sad thinking back what happens for the past 2 months..

dang, i just hope that they will not do that anymore to the others... what if that person needed that job badly... tsk tsk...

haaayy, i feel like i've been wasting my time... it is only right now how i did realized how wasteful my life has been for many years.. i have so many ifs inside my mind... haayy.. but lord please don't prolong my feelings.. i know i should also be responsible for the way my life was going on right now..but i still needs your guidance and care.. so please let my life be on track again!!

again the gratitude i have for kuya and kha is still overflowing.. i just hope that they will not stop supporting me and our family as well.. i wishes them more blessing and of course a baby....

and for my mom.. im sorry i wasnt able to fulfill what i should be doing now.. haaiisshh.. but need not to worry.. we still have time..just hold on!!

and for my FANDOM... aiiisshh..im really really broke but im still a FAN!!! but i cant right now..... im still having problems.. but these fandom was as awesome as ever...arashi, bigbang, 2ne1, shinee, dbsk, super junior... korean drams..running man...you helped me overcome things.

kon ^~^

and my pc now was been brutally and savagely mal-treated! the HD was been disconnected as well as the video card.. and oh also the 1tb memory was also at the back of my pc stall.. tsk tsk..... and i clean it the other day and hoping that i can still operate it.. dang my precious HD cannot be read.. waahh my files are in there.. but the nice thing is that i can still open it although they are so many problems... the sounds arent normal.. it sometimes have and sometimes it goes off.. and there is a virus.. hhuhuhu..where did it came from.... and that virus was crushing the installed program, like the internet connection can't get through, i was just lucky today to have a connection, the downloading program, i cant use.. phew.. my pc are really in critical condition.. it needed replacement.. sigh....

phew, anyeong!

cutieheechulie

me here na sa pinas, home sweet home!!!
now, the hurt is gradually healing, i have to forgot all the bad things happen ne'.. i need to be strong.. although i feel a lil humiliated,, aiissshhh...



as long as my family is here with me i shouldn't have to be afraid and back down... i know lord you have a bigger plans for me.. thanks at least nothing much worse happen to me besides the emotional pain.. thanks lord and praise be to GOD!!

im happy to be with mom again!!!

and i just wanna say also a happy birthday mama mary and happy anniversary to kuya mike and carol, sayangness i wasnt able to be there to celebrate it together.. 

feel so full, ate a lot of foods today, ate sopas, grilled pork, dilis.. then at dinner we had 18" yellow cab new yorker pizza.... and tsaraaaann a neighbor also buy us wendys.. yummyness..waaahhh foods i cant take it anymore.. .. so saraaaaapp ng foods here sa pinas!!!

chalja!!!

greeeaatt.. im now illegally staying here.... and i might fly to my country today.. what an experienced!

GOD BLESS the Ciarla bosses!!

anyeong

i was ready to post a giffy but then..waahh my files here in my kuya's lappy are missing maybe he erase it na..huhuhuhu.. i still havent save it yet eh..aissshhh... kainis...

did hear mass yesterday.. then laundry..what a day to spend my day off.... and then went to alwahda mall with kha.. sheeesshh.. i check out misha store.. its a korean make store pala.. then i saw bb cream..omo..its so expensive..i though that it will just gonna range from 50 to 100 aed..but it was 149... waahh but its really nice... but im still thinking...i dont have much money....

then todays work is so tiring because of the damn folios.... it was so many.. arrggh my head hurts so much... i just did it all day.. anyways thanks to jo cause she was helping me although i did redo her job..just to be sure... haaaiissh..

and then heard that rhea..  was out of the picture, she was dropped by the company because of some issues..

ciao..

anyeong!

whoaahh, i was a bit surprised about this news because that this means they'll be no more SS4 next year?, anyways.. chulie fighting!!

posed together with suju co-member siwon!!


anyeong HEECHUL!!