a cigar and a beer

whew.. i have been this cheerful for the past weeks because of the k-series and the korean actor that ive been admiring...neweiz the blog wasn't a feel good one cause its been a week since i've last chatted with my brother who's working abroad... and i really don't expect that this argument will happen between our chat!!!
okay here's what the chat run's in... first of course the hi and hello.. and what's up ... blah blah blah.... when i suddenly told him of the plans my mom and i was thinking for next year.. we are discussing to put up an internet cafe in our place since my mom had resigned effective on the 1st of january 2007 from her job. and the retirement pay that she will get is the one will gonna use for the said business. and it will be in our own place but my brother protested and said things like "oh..you shouldn't do that cause it will just get our house messy and yucky... so the protest goes on...and i just say okay just to finish the argument and changed the topic when he suddenly said that can i do a favor for him.. actually it was some kind of a proposal for me.. and i asked him what is it all about.. and he was hesitant at first ans told me that he was shy but he said it is for like the best or i wouldn't have to worry or whatsoever but i kept on asking him on what is it that he's asking for..and i wasn't prepared that what he was asking was like a bomb.. actually i forgot the whole and exact words that we exchange between cause when what he's asking for sink in i got teary eyed..
neweiz this is the best i can remember:
my brother: i have a favor to ask for..
me: what is it
my brother: hmm, m kind of shy but i guess its for a good and you've got nothing to lose
me: okay what is it??
my brother: im really shy
me: a lil pissed
me: come on, tell me??
my brother: okay
me: so...
my brother: hmm if i got back home can you please moved out??
me:(stunned for a moment)
me: ahh.. sure.. that's what i wanted to do
to get out thins fuckin' house.. (in a ballistic now,with tears rolling down on my cheeks)
(typing bad words)
okay i will very soon but if ive got enough money i will get my mom and stay with me so dad will stay with you!!
MB: can mom stay with me until my wedding..
me: that is if i don't still have enough money but if i do get lucky and have some money before your wedding i will get her!!

that's prolly the exchanging lines we had though i edited it cause i can't remember the other but we're fighting whose side mom will stay.. hm.. i wasn't really angry cause he was kicking me out of our house its because he sees me as a pain in his ass.. i'm not really sure what was his reasons for asking me to move out but all i can say is that we really ain't close and always have a lil fights.. okay i know i also have faults why we fights but arrgghh.. i don't intend to stay in our house for the rest of my lives.. i want to explore the world and sees things that i haven't seen before gawwdd.. i have a dream too... sigh!!!

for now i don't have plans to talk to him cause i still feel the rage i have for him.. i still can't think that he would have blurted it out things like that!!
anyways thats for now!!

aha.. i forgot the title says a cigar and a beer cause after a few hours of our net fight i cry together with these two things!! i don't have much friends plus im not the type of person who confide with friends!! i don't know why but i always like to be a confidante!!
and its one way of making me feel a lil okay i guess..